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Since Kage and I met, they've basically been real bipolar on whether they approve or not. I just got this e-mail from my mom, tell me if you think this sounds like she's disowning me:
Natalie,
Yes,I was on line,but in no way interested in trying to communicate with you.I'm your Mom,we just have to deal w/it. YEP Baby,you are in M.N.,on your own.Don't worry,there will never be any interruption from your Dad,brother or I.
If you at any time want all of your birth parents info ,we will be happy to send it to you. Wish you the best,we all will always love you,but the world you've entered and continue to live in is alien to us. Frankly,we would like to keep it that way.
Do Not ever correspond to us your feelings regarding hurt,etc...The HURT,interruption and pain you have exposed this family to ....will I can't exactly put in words.EVERYTHING is not about you! --
Lastly,If you want to continue to believe,convince yourself that your grandparents,Nana and Grandaddy would be happy and be proud of your lifestyle--well go ahead and continue believing!
It is more than a shame that you and Cameron had to witness/live the hurt exhibited in our family.Daddy and I really tried
to make you both understand that FAMILY is everything and that LOVE from your family is soooo very important. Believe me,I know I had love,family love from Nana and Grandaddy.I also think/know Cameron understands that he has it as well.Don't really understand why you don't seem to understand it;much more than that;don't understand why you don't want it.
Wish you the best;we all care a great deal about you and forever will.
Mom
Here's my response when I saw this, tell me if this sounds fair:
Mom,
Okay so I want to make sure of something. This e-mail, you're basically saying that you're disowning me for the second and last time right? I think it's only fair I get a reply to at least that question, I want to get it clarified.
As far as Depelchin and any information regarding my biological parents goes, I was going to ask you so when you get it, could you kindly send it up to Frank & Audrey's house?
I want to ask about the lifestyle though. What do you mean? Do you seriously believe those stupid co-workers of mine? Do you really think Jim is hitting me? Mother, those co-workers are the most unreliable people to even believe, I'm amazed you're taking their word instead of mine. Jim would never, ever hit me. Trust me, if he wanted to, he would've shown signs of this earlier. I got an e-mail from Officer Kraus last Tuesday. If you're still convinced I'm being beaten (which is very, very sad) I'll personally call Officer Kraus, let him examine me myself and he can tell you I'm fine. All I have are the dark circles on my eyes which have been there for years, a bruise on my knee from banging in the door, 2 tattoos (yes, I did get some. Their the zodiac signs for Virgo and Aquarius, Jim's sign.), and the 2nd degree burn mark I got from the pretzel maker (the one I told you both about, when I was working at OrangeJulius).
I'm sorry this is what it came down to but maybe you'll now understand why I was so confused about you and Dad calling me after you'd disowned me again. I knew in the end, it'd lead to nothing but disaster. This is what I've been trying to tell you but I guess I've never been good with this kind of thing anyways.
If you truly want to believe my lifestyle consists of being a whore for Jim and his friends while getting beaten, I feel very sorry for you....mainly because you don't have any proof so you just assume it. If you're going to disown me, then it may as well be official and I do the same to you because the last 2 months of communication with you and Dad have been too emotionally upsetting and I won't take anymore. It's like you keep strapping me in an emotional rollercoaster, and the more I try to get out, the tighter you keep me in. Well now it's time I grabbed my dagger out and cut myself free of those straps and got off. Words cannot express how disappointed I am in you both, how shocked I am at ya'll. You've got some nerve thinking Jim would hit me. Why would he? Have I ever given him a reason?? Just because you're dumb ex-husband tried to hit you doesn't mean everyone will. And for God's sakes, stop saying I'm the one always hurting the family. What about Aunt Kathryn? Or was that my fault too? You can believe whatever you want but here's the truth, in case you ever want to start believing it:
-Jim's not hitting me
-Jim loves me very, very very dearly, just like Dad does you
-I KNOW Nana and Granddaddy would be proud BECAUSE I'm finding DECENT, good-paying work that doesn't involve selling my body.
-I KNOW that a lot of people in Minnesota here are very shocked at what you think of Jim and are starting to get really annoyed at you for saying such bullshit.
-I KNOW I made the right choice when you made me decide between Jim or you guys.
-If you define family love as slapping me for "being insubordinant", always making me do what you want instead of letting me live my life, than I'd rather receieve family hate than love. That's why I haven't taken it, because you're not displaying love. You're displaying that you're getting scared.....over pathetic theories that you think are true but in reality aren't.
-I KNOW I can distinguish the difference between real life and roleplays. It seems that you can't, provided I also believe you're getting the "hitting theory" from what we used to do in RPs. First off, those were RPs, fake. Secondly, did you read roles? We were generally acting out POW/interrogater. Do you think, in real life, they'd be nice? I know POWs have rights and all, but trust me, the enemy WILL BE as mean as they can without violating a POW's rights. We were merely being realistic, nothing more, nothing less. I'm sorry you actually tried to apply what we do in RPs was happening for real. I really am.
There, I hope that explains everything to you. I'll be at Lu's mom's till the end of this month, then Jim and I are moving into another place. I thought you'd want to know that much. I'll be getting paid weekly as a secretary/officer/clerical worker at about $11/hr, maybe more.
Again, I'm sorry it came down to this, but it seems you've made your minds up. Thanks for letting me know, I can now rest in peace knowing what to expect and get my life schedule more organized. Like I said, you can believe what you want, but the truth's listed in case you want that one of these days.
~Natalie Layne Robinson (Sherman in '07) OR Laura Michelle McCombs (original name)~
Does her e-mail make any sense???!! Or is it just me?!? I just wish they'd leave me alone!!! They cause too much emotional, mental and psychological pain for me and I can't deal with it much anymore!!! I really can't. I wanna get a goddamn hitman and ask him to shoot them, that's how sick of them I am. Please help me!!!
 Nina Layne Williams · Sat Oct 15, 2005 @ 01:29am · 0 Comments |
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