So its finally my break and my father's birthday. My Aunt is comming up from Flordia or Tennessee. lol I don't know where. xd She has moved back and forth between those states. So I'm going out to eat later for his birthday and shes comming along. The holidays aren't here for me....theres nothing. Its just an other day and the happiness is all gone and will NEVER come back....well maybe some day
I was talking to this guy that I thought I never would relaly yestersday, so surprised. Then I made a fool of myself in front of my crush. I don't know how the hell I like him. He drinks some, smokes, ******** poepel for fun...and just not for me. He thinks I'm weird and just not good. Oh wells. Thing is a few other people like me but they are from online and like them too....especially this one kid. How do you tell them? I can't date people online just never works for me. You can't truly love and know someone you never met and...I can't love someone, don't know how. I have told this one kid though that I might love him and we've gone through a lot together but I can't focus on people who aren't here. I don't even know how to run my own life. I need to fix me and actually find someone who cares here....that shall never work here. I have a really bad rep for some reason and a lot of candy I DON'T WANT!!!! Grrrrr
We got a new vacuum. Its like trying to get a babrbi out of a box only less painful and more things to break!! Yay. Then you have to put it together and prove that your father doesn't know what hes doing. lol
I was talking to this guy that I thought I never would relaly yestersday, so surprised. Then I made a fool of myself in front of my crush. I don't know how the hell I like him. He drinks some, smokes, ******** poepel for fun...and just not for me. He thinks I'm weird and just not good. Oh wells. Thing is a few other people like me but they are from online and like them too....especially this one kid. How do you tell them? I can't date people online just never works for me. You can't truly love and know someone you never met and...I can't love someone, don't know how. I have told this one kid though that I might love him and we've gone through a lot together but I can't focus on people who aren't here. I don't even know how to run my own life. I need to fix me and actually find someone who cares here....that shall never work here. I have a really bad rep for some reason and a lot of candy I DON'T WANT!!!! Grrrrr
We got a new vacuum. Its like trying to get a babrbi out of a box only less painful and more things to break!! Yay. Then you have to put it together and prove that your father doesn't know what hes doing. lol
UPDATE: Wow ok this kid who was really nice to me and we were becoming really good friends. He also really liked me and kept saying he loved me so on. blah blah blah. Well he finally dicides to go with this one girl and never tells me. Hes flirting with me saying he loves me but doesn't post the comments. What a ******** jerk and I have been telling him I don' want to get hurt or anything like that. He lied....he was playing me and I don't care!! I just deleted your sorry a**
