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Well journal. Today is going to be really deep. I don't know why but. When I am around Key and her friends. I feel really left out and also. It feels like she can't be herself around me. When she is with her friends she is full of life. When she is alone with me she is quiet. Maybe I bore her. Maybe cause she no longer likes me she feels like she just can't be her self around me. Or maybe she worry that if she is herself I will like her again. I don't know what it is. I feel like I might just have to leave her alone. Not alone alone but just let her live her life and I will just let her be when she is with her friends. I feel like I am just in the way when I am around her. :/ Also when we all hang out she messes with them and it still feels like I am just there. Boring ol Jamar. She flirts and play with everyone and joke and play and I am just all serious business. Maybe she is just bored of and with me. IDK what it is and it is getting to me. Oh well. Ignore it for now. If it continues I will confront it then and hopefully it won't end on a bad note.