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my schedule:
1. wake up
2. get ready for the day
3. go and get on the bus
4. get to school
5. hug my 'mommy'
6.go to class
7. hug 'mommy' during passing time after 2nd, 4th, lunch, 7th and 8th
8. get out of school and falling on ice on the way to the bus
9. sit by 'daughter'
10. get off bus and slip on ice all the way to my house
11. start home work for 15 minutes
12: go to work at 4
13. get out early at 6
14. go to grandparents house
15. see my grandpa laying on a hospital bed
16. when we leave i look back and see him dying in front of me

that is how my day went.
not much people who care about me really know me, he was the only person who cared and knew me.
i dont care about many people because i was never cared for, but i care about him because i knew he cared about me.
now i am loosing the person that is closest to me.
he may be my grandpa but i care for him the the parents i never really had, because mine hate me. when i was little when ever i was yelled at for no reason he would come and get me and watch me play at the park.
he cared for me and i feel so guilty because i didnt want to see him when he was so sick, what kind of person am i?