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Yes, like My subject line thingy says, not to be grim...and then nothing else because you know what??!! I didn't finish the sentance. Its a dramatic kind of thing. Yes.... I bet at this very moment you're begging the text your greedy little eyes are reading to tell you more. more, more, more. Well You know what? I will do just that. I am sick. Some of you may already know, but its pretty serious this time. The doctors aren't quite sure what it is, which is never really a good thing. Ever. Because they are supposed to know....luckily (or....possibly...unluckily), We do have a few possible causes for my being pretty sick. . .
1. I may have mononucleosis. This would explain my extreme fatigue and my headaches that literally throw me off my feet. As well as the mouth ulcers that are preventing me to eat...if you don't factor in my complete loss of apetite, which you all know, is NOT me....Though this is not the best outcome...I really do hope its the answer. My organs swelling up inside of me and intense uncomfort for a few weeks is nothign compared to what it possibly could also be. 2. The second option...and probably second scariest...if not terrifying, is a brain mass, or tumor to be simple. This also explains my dizzying headaches, mouth sores, apetite change, tenderness in my mouth, fatigue, rollar coaster fever, queasyness, (sorry about this one) elongated period, and vision problems. This scares me half to death, and just thinking about it almost makes me wanna cry...yah...scary stuff indeed... 3. The last....and by far most scary option, but luckily for me, the least possible option, is AIDS. Though this is HIGHLY unlikely, simply because I've never had sex, I don't believe I've used any contaminated needles, and I don't have any family members with AIDS, (Or friends or whatever). Though...this explains all my symptoms basically, minus the fact that I don't have an extremly high fever...yah, so this one is highly unlikely, but still explains a lot so it was thrown out there for some labs to chew on...
Well, I went in for a CT scan (Digital image of my brain) to look for any kind of masses or anything, and then I got some blood drawn and pus(yes...ewwwwww) sampled for mono, about 2 days ago, since which, I haven't left my bed. I've been sick for about a week now and though this kind of thing has happened to me before, its never lasted close to this long, or been this severe. I just hope its nothing too terrible...Time will tell I suppose.
I miss my friends...I haven't seen them for weeks, and though I can chat with them about how things are going over the internet and stuff its not the same. And unfortunatly...even if I were to go to school tomorrow, which I probably shouldn't, I couldn't even get near them because what I have could be dangerous to them. Yes...life is not fair. I curse its unwillingness to just leave me the f*ck be.
Siiiiigggggghhhhhh......Pray for me my friends, to whatever God you believe in, and if you don't believe in a God, pray that someone who does will. I'm going to need all the help i can get this time...
iLustZebraCakes · Mon Jan 12, 2009 @ 12:36am · 0 Comments |
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