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I thought today would be okay. Made tin foil hats in Bio to make sure that aliens didn't pick up on our brainwaves. Also hung out with Randi and inhaled chocolate to drown our sorrows in creamy milk chocolate almond waves.

Except on the bus this huge tsunami of depression crashed over my head and I drowned in that and Bullet For My Valentine instead.

Walking home in the freezing cold and a fifty pound backpack took twenty minutes on my gimpy ankle, which hurts all the time now, whether or not I'm on it.

Then mum comes home and says, "I got an e-mail from your Biology teacher," which I knew was going to happen since that b***h Mason told me in front of everyone.

So now I'm waiting for she and dad to corner me and to hurry up and tell me I'm a disappointment so I can concentrate on better things. Like, maybe the impossible task of forgetting how to care. Stuff that's actually useful.


These days are dead again, it's empty from the start
And it drives me CRAZY
The hours drift away, it hurts to remember
This will soon be over.

Should it all come crashing down upon me?
Would you be there?
Should I stumble or fall or pick up the pieces?

Oh, forget about the s**t we've been through
I wanna stay here forever and always
Oh, standing here in front of all of you
I wanna stay here forever and always.

Forever and always
Always, always, always
Forever and always.