so i sat around thinking about this all day... for those of you who don't know (which is pretty much everyone...) ...you still don't get to know... but it was my fault--- he needed love and i was so... i didn't love him and i couldn't even bring myself to lie to save him
so for you: that's the reason you and him are/were different. i never really loved him. sure he interested me and such and such and you'd think i would, but i didn't. and i love you
but that's not the point i was bringing up
... now i don't reallly know what my point was though, i just needed to get this out. it was my fault, i know it, and it's been a couple years now so i'm used to the pain... but the whole experience kind of ruined me. it showed me that i'm pathetic at anything and i don't make a difference AND it totally ruined things between me and another person, although they weren't even there when it happened. i ddin't know how to explain things to them and i know it was always this block between us
whatever, i'm done crying over this... it'll be ok (i hope)
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