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a couple weeks ago me and my boyfriend had sex, which was good for the moment but something so good could only last for that long, after a while his parents figured out and then so did mine. this was the worse day of my life caused by the best day of my life. these aren't poems they're things from that one night i visited hell that have been bothering me.




my sister
she talked to me for the first time in 4 days,
it was a mere 2 words,
not in a very happy tone either,
she won't even look at me now.....

Her hand slapped my face,
and sent my glasses to the other room,
"i need my glasses to see" i tried to tell her
"if u can search for d**k u can sure as hell find your glasses" was her reply

my brother was my best friend,
we were always close...
and now he won't come anywhere near me.
and knowing that hurts

Matthew jacob Varela is the one that ******** up my whole life.
he told the footall team that me and my bf had sex.
and now im grounded for life.

my boyfriend is the only one i care about. he's the only one that actually cares for me. And the last thing i want to do is leave him or hurt him. he's the best thing that has ever happened to me. and i hope we will never have to be anywhere far away from eachother. he's the only one i would ever shed a tear for along with the closest of my friends..... everyone else can go burn in hell.


and for the people that realized that this is my 3rd posting for like the past half hour, i have alot on my mind. and this is the only thing thats keeping that blade away from my wrist.