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Just copied and paste from my journal on vampirefreaks since i wrote it.


Lately | February 02, 2009, 09:45:pm


Lately i have been depressed, crying (or feel like crying), tired, sleepy and not eating so much. the bad part is that i dont even know when i started being like this and why. usually im funny, random, happy and nice. but recently im not. i do try to be happy around my friends at school but it doesnt work sometimes. im trying to happy so that nobody worries about me or thinks im cutting myself. then, when my friends ask me whats wrong, i just say that i was spacing out. but i have a feeling that they are worried about me or probably have an idea whats going on. idk. i honestly dont know why im depressed. sometimes, i just want to cry my eyes out. but i try not to when im around people. also, im not getting enough sleep. ive been sleeping 4-6 hours a night. i need more than that. sleeping less has made me tired too. ive been trying to have one or two days where i sleep the whole day but i cant because of my projects and homework and plans. i have been eating less too. instead of eating my meals, i just get like 1 or 2 cookies or something. basically, little snacks. but i am drinking a lot of water. so, yeah. well, a good thing is that im not cutting because thats what i used to do. i have stopped completely. so thats something not to worry about. idk. hopefully, i somehow get happier or something.
Mood: depressed/sleepy/tired
Music: harder than you know--escape the fate