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I was once told..feelings can't hurt anyone.
The person who told me with...IS WRONG!
Feelings can hurt,the burn deep..and run strong..until..that feeling...gets crushed.
like the feeling of love..can get SMASHED INTO LITTLE TINY PIECES!!!!
You can be told your LOVE,when NOTHING EVER IS RIGHT!!!!!!
you can be told,your feelings mean the world to you..BUT does it do the same for SOMEONE ELSE??? NO!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE MY FEELINGS! THEY MAKE ME NOTHING BUT WEAK!!!!! AND SPINELESS!!!!!! PATHETIC!!!!!! USELESS.............*sigh* look at me..reacting like..i was kicked in the stomach...I hate myself...no one should even consider loving..or even liking me..i am...just a pathetic...idiot...a..useless..idiot...a NO NOTHING LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:O but...i have learned something...feelings can also heal..you as well....but....but...i just can't stop....MY BRAIN TURNS TO MUSH EVERYTIME I HEAR.....that name....everytime....someone brings....that name back into my life. I JUST WANT HIM GONE!!!!!!!!! *looks at the floor,crying* I cry myself to sleep..every night...everyday i punch myself..for feeling WEAK....every afternoon..when i come home i PUNCH WALLS,PUNCH MYSELF YET AGAIN!!!!!!! WHY AM I SO WEAK!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY GOD DAMN IT WHY???????????? *punches stomach* DAMN IT WHY??? somedays...i want to buy a gun..blow my brains out....and....End my Pain..End my suffering..end IT ALL!!!!!!!!!! END IT TO FEEL BETTER..watch the blood run down my wrist...down my waist...DOWN MY SPINE!!!!!!! DOWN ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE....i...i...i just...want to DIE, to stop this Breathing.......to.....to stop loving him....*starts to cry again* I...i am sick of being weak..i want to go back..BACK TO THE DARK!!!!!! BEFORE I WAS CURED...SLIT MY WRISTS....CUT MYSELF OPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But whatever...I guess i will have to suffer until i collapse on myself.