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Haha nobody reads these, so i don't see why i make them........ crap......

Sooooo.....yeah.......Mom is supposed to die within six to twelve months.... But if they do another blood test, and if she does well on it, she might have twelve years left. Then she says we can move back to Florida until she....well..... you know.....
I'm so tired. How can I sleep???? This ridiculus(i know i didn't spell it right!), I feel like a friggen fake emo!!! Not cool! I don't believe in stereotypes!!!

Good thing I have not ever cut myself, or i would have a crapload of scars or something...
Meh, I miss my friends in Florida dammit!!! They were the best friends i ever had. All of my other friends in other states were awful, calling me names like ' goth' and 'anti-christ'.
I go to church sad . Either that, or they were liars and would steal from me, or they would make me feel terrible, and batter my self-esteem..... I would rather live in the streets with the friends I had there (or in my old apartment) , as opposed to this 3-story house I have here in Pennsylvania. The kids here get on my nerves, telling everybody how their lives sucks and how they hate their lives and parents because they couldn't get a material possesion. Stupid kids.

And to think, maybe if my dad had never left, my mother would never have had it so hard. But then again, I would have never met the great friends that I had in Florida. They made me feel happy when I was around them, like nothing had ever happened exept what was happening right there and then.

I remember at this one dance, everybody was dancing and having an awesome time, but I was too shy and insecure to dance with them. I really regret that now. I don't know why I didn't dance though...... Everybody looked so happy, and I wanted to be happy. Now that I think about it more, its always been that way with my other 'friends'... They would be doing something and having a great time, but I never joined them. That sounds kind of pitiful, huh?

I haven't really been drawing lately either. I think the real inspiration for my art was the happy and wild energy my friends gave off. Now that they aren't here anymore, I kind of don't feel like it anymore. How conceeded does that sound? I probably sound like some rambling, whiny, self centered brat... I don't think I am that way.

At my new school, the kids are really weird. They place so much importance on having a boyfriend. Thats probably just the girls though...
EEEEwwWWW!! This one girl was talking about her and her boyfriend like making out or something, and then she said that he was fingering her afterwards!!!! Thats friggen disgusting!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways rolleyes , this thing is getting really long, so I'll stop here...

Bye then!!!!