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hey pplz this is a non-so random thing i guess. well im posting a new blog on myspace so..... ya......my myspace is ********** NUN OF UR BUISNESS. BUT ANY WAY I FEEL DEAD INSIDE UM LET ME TELL U WHY


IT ALL STARTED WHEN Kolleen asked me (infront of my dad) if i had started my period so i said ya. well ever sence that he had one day asked me hey **** wanna come into the closet with me so i said no then i started feeling uncomfortable so i told Kolleen how i felt and she said no he ment go in there by myself just me in a room in the dark by myself. so i kept feeling uncomfortable. soomething kept telling me that sumthing wasnt right. so when i flew back to**** i never called him again i hoped he would get the message by now but he didnt....so i kept telling myself he was dead but he wasnt so......now i want to teell him DAD I DONT EVER WANT TO COME OUT HERE UNLESS IM BEING SUPER VISED BY A AHGENT OR SUM....AND THE ONLY REASON I COME OUT IS BECUASE SLADE....IF SUMTHING WAS TO HAPEN TO SLADE I WOULD NEVER COME OUT TO SEE YOU. SO now i wwant to say this but......im scared of my future........so........ i feel trapped in a world were there are no happily ever afters so.......idk.