Why do i love him? Damn, why can't i get the hell over him? What lures me to him? Why can't he just leave me alone? Why does he find the need to talk to me and ask whats wrong with there are tears in my eyes? Why is it when im sad i become so deseprate for love and affection i go to the first person who says they care about me and love me? Why do i sit here, shaking, asking why...why...why?
Why didn't i just ignore him like usual, why didnt i tell him it wasnt any of his business? Why did my heart start to flutter when he told me he loved me? Why did i promise him a kiss? Why? Why? WHY GOD DAMN IT!!?!?! Why have i sunk to such a level as to forgive him?
I tried to remember what he did to me, and what he did to Alyssa, and what he did to Victoria... he broke our hearts, one after another. He pretended to like Alyssa, he said he love victoria, when his heart belonged to me... why why why! I look at my right thigh, i see the scars, i remember the nights so long ago when i cut, because i was mad at him. If it werent for him i wouldnt have cut.
Now that i've trained myself to hate him, why can't i just grow a backbone and tell him i hate him? He's a perverted sick b*****d with no understanding of how i feel, he makes me love him, by making me hate him, he makes me cry, by making me smile, he makes me want to die by... nope he just makes me want to die.
*falls on the floor and bleeds to death* Damn i can only wish. emo
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