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OMFG

today was like the worst at work.

Back ground:

We have this customer that comes in often, he is fat and ugly.... (so i think after today)
anywho, he has a daughter who is in 3rd grade
she is kinda special ed i think.... but not super, only slightly...

ANY WAY after i met her, i always would be really nice and try to wave hello, and start conversation with her, just to be like a friend.

but when i did this, she would like hide behind her dad, or say "why do u ask me so many questions!?"
but each time, she did this smiling, and i thought she was just shy,

BUT [this is wat happened today]

today i waved and did like i always did., and then they left....

then the guy comes back in and i wave to him, being nice and he comes up to me and says, in a serious and almost angry voice,

"Cory [my real name] you just ignore my daughter from now on, stop playing your little games, she asked me to say that to you"

i was so taken aback! he said that as if i was harassing her...

I could only say, "sorry i didnt mean any harm."

then he just left... and i felt like crap.

i was mixed with sadness and anger.

first off i was ******** pissed at that filthy ignorant scum for speaking to me like he did... and for that little b***h acting as she does... all i did was try to be friendly... but no.

but i also felt sad, because i just tried to do something nice, but get bitten for it...

then my co worker, after i told her what happened, said,
"thats ok, ull always be Cory"

then thats when i realized, yes i will be, and maybe thats the problem, me being my self is never good enough for anyone..

my aunt and uncle i now live with, they think im too immature, and too childish

being myself is never good enough for them

my new friends i hang out with at my new skewl,
i annoy them too much, just being myself...

being myself isnt good enough for them.

that customer and his daughter...

obviously, being kind, and being myself isnt good enough for them

Its things like this that really make me want to :

a. Die
b. Go somewhere where no one knows me [Japan]
c. Kill that customer.

Yes option c. is good, but im no murderer.
i just wish that stupid ignorant people like that idiot customer, and all those other trully stupid people would just drop off the face of the earth and die.

:} ive never ever had a death wish before, but this is the first time i have actually wanted a "Death Note"

but the question remains, whos name would i really write? Their's, or my own?