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How come when my life is perfect [well at least perfect enough to me] I have to screw things up! My friends....they find me weird sometimes and I always seem to make them feel sorry for me or totally hate me...I make an itsy bitsy mistake and they get pissed yet I forgive them for all the s**t they do to me! I think there is only one person I can trust and sometimes I can't even do that :/...ANd heaven forbid I can catch a guy and he doesn't lie to me,Cheat on me, or hurt me so bad that I want to die. And I almost do from the lack of water, that comes out of my eyes and would never stop! So since all my bfs cheated on me I guess they aren't the problem I am. And I guess since I can't find a decient friend it must be me to....So I guess I'm not meant to be loved or cared about...Now I just wish that....maybe I should just run away..but what would that do. It won't give me back my hopes, dreams, and my tears. All it would do is nothing at all. So whats the point of it. And whats the point of living if I will never be loved by another in anyway shape or form :/