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I know that nobody is going to read this. I know that nobody really actually cares about how I'm feeling right now. You know HOW I know?...

I can't remember the last time that somebody talked to me.
Somebody, as in...a select number of people that I USED to consider to be my best friends...

I'm never asked to hang out, nobody texts me anymore, talks to me online, OR even talks to me in person...

Why don't I just finish stabbing the knife into my heart for ya, eh?

This is supposed to be my senior year in high school, and I'm going to graduate with a whopping four, maybe five friends.

What are the reasons?

Is it because I work so much? I'm sorry that I have a mom that tells me that if I want something, that I have to pay for it. I want a car, I have to put gas in it and I have to pay the insurance. I actually have a cell phone in my own name, because that's the only way I'm going to get one.

Is it because I like to spend time with my boyfriend? I've told him from the very start that if any of my girlfriends asked me to hang out, and I had plans with him, that I would probably break the plans. But have I had to do that...? Nope. Why? Because nobody ever wants to hang out.

I feel more alone in my life right now than I ever have.

I'm struggling to stay strong.
I don't get along with my mom, and my friends don't want to be in my life anymore...

How am I supposed to feel? How am I supposed to take this?

Somebody please, just tell me what I'm supposed to do next because I'm running out of fuel.