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Not a story either... HI Well as you can see this is not a story...something tells me i have to put all my feelings and pain inside my cute little journal. I used to be a happy-go-lucky guy, i'm buoyant, optimistics and positive and i love my girl as much...things always went right day after day and my smiles always drawn upon my face till it reaches the eye..until one day... I really dont have any idea what's wrong me... i used to be cheerful lad but now my whole entire sould be filled wityh concerned and pain....this PAIN in my body keeps on hurting me non stop day and night and it makes me lose my ability to talk efficiently and fluently. Moreover bcoz of it i cant even focus on my every messages i post either in forum or in PM... help someone please... Also my mind is not gaining a liberty nor ease because of this upcoming exam. My life always filled with challenge and fear...i want to give it up despite all the things happen to me....i cant focus on my girlfreinds, my studies and even myself...i have ambiguity for some reason; i dunno who the hell am i....i once thinking of having a homicide but i think it's stupid and lack of judegement including mental... I really love all my fren and even my girl but it's jus i cant focus 100 percent on them...every word i type is not mostly coming from my heart instead it's from my mind...my eye always be filled with gore, sadistics and sadness and i think i'm going to take a month or two vacation leaving gaia...i just want to get an ease....i jus want to be me...the old love_thirst.. Aaron

Posted by: Love_thirst Thu Nov 10, 2005 @ 10:07pm

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Commented on: Fri Nov 11, 2005 @ 03:22am


	heart heart heart Aaron, Hey this is ur girl. Why didn't you tell me you were having problems? You know i love u and care about u that u can tell me anything. I think it's a good idea that u take a break but im gonna miss you with all my heart and soul. I don't want u to never think a suicide ever again plz b/c i love u and killing urself isn't a good idea. Just remember u can talk to me about anything!!!! hugs aaron really tight and starts to cry I'll miss you alot!!!! heart heart heart

Commented on: Fri Nov 11, 2005 @ 06:22am


	Hi Jenn biggrin Thanx for giving me your comment... i jus made this one in the morning before i leave...it's 6.00 am and my dads noisily honk his car in the garage...i was surprised, i thought no one will ever readmy journal..haha biggrin

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Commented on: Fri Nov 11, 2005 @ 10:29am


	hi, how are you? is she ur girl?hehe lol jokes.....she's nice.... biggrin

Commented on: Fri Nov 11, 2005 @ 12:42pm


	I always read ur Journals. biggrin It's 7:41 here and waiting on my sis to get other and we'll be leaving. I thought u were going to leave? Pm me back plz xd

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Commented on: Sat Nov 12, 2005 @ 04:01pm


	YOU SUCK!!!!! blaugh blaugh blaugh blaugh blaugh blaugh blaugh blaugh blaugh

Commented on: Sun Nov 13, 2005 @ 11:35am


	oh so ur 'one nite stand' i get it now...hi!! :waves at her: how are you?

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Commented on: Mon Nov 14, 2005 @ 10:41am


	i like ur journal it makes me sad and feel the same way as u are... crying heart

Commented on: Sun Jan 29, 2006 @ 07:59pm


	Hey suicide/ homicide? are you insane???? I know how you feel but come on! Don't be selfish and through your life like that just coz u feel that way, people care about u and they need u here! I have problems and trust me. It's MAJOR pain. I nearly died coz of these things.. and I'm not lying to you.But hey,you have friends to talk this through and your gf is here to support you. At least you have them, I only have a bf to talk about it coz none of my friends could understand. OR at least, they try but they never do anything. I'll stop here this is getting too long! lol.... hope u feel better by the time u come back, and dont stress. Just keep an open and optimistic mind.

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Commented on: Mon Jan 30, 2006 @ 05:53am


	Welll i guess you're right...i have frens lots of them but are rarely online since we're having different time zone, i have girlfrens but is now taking a vacation and some even broke their legs after being hit by a car( i asked her to wear her lucky chaRM from now and day after) Well anyways cut the sad scene bring up the joy and fame, brighten your day with hapiness and gay and uhm...cant think of any word no more lol i'm tired...i may not be able to be online again...Hey Aerle!! thanx for giving me incentive, it cools me down a bit. And Alexa, thanx for posting. you have been so nice to me all this time.. uhm one nite stand....you suck LOL lastly but not least, jenn...hope you'll get along with him a lot better.. till then...((OOC: i started to sound that i'm going to be dead)) Aaro lionheart

Commented on: Fri Jun 30, 2006 @ 07:37pm


	This is a very sad entry!! Did you ever stop hurting??? and everyone has a point, no more thoughts like that!! You'll feel better soon! Just like the old you!!! PM me soon bcuz i sent you one!! your friend!!! keep friends close but your enemies closer. but keep life long friends closer than even your worst enemy!! mrgreen mrgreen

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