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I know its coming but even when it dose come I'll still be supirsed and hurt.
Why is it that when someone dies you feel overwhemling sadness?
Even if you didn't know the person that well you still feel empty inside?
Why do people have to go in such horrible ways?Why can't they just go peacfully?
Is it beyond a higher power to have people go in simpler ways?
When you know someone very well you feel a greater emptyness inside and it won't go away.
I can't get this hole out from my heart.I can't fill it in with any amount of new love or anything else that might fill up your sadness.He hasn't died yet but I know he will.
This will be the second life cancer has clamied in my family.I know that someone else near to me is next.Who knows.....it might be me.
I've never looked to god for anything and it never crossed my mind but just this once.....I'll pray with shaking hands and ask him to help my family.

~Ren