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I have been trying to keep up with this journal but i find that i get sidetracked easily these days. So here i am yet again ready to babble for a short time on the many things that bump around in my head. Twilight coming out on video this month can't wait am dying to see it the books have been a real treat and i am really enjoying each of them. For the most part things are crazy inside my head these days and i am not sure how to strighten anything out. i am driving myself nuts and it is so out of the blue. how do you make sense of things in your head that all you really want for them to do is go away. I don't want to think on this crap i don't want it to be in my head or in my life. Uhhhhhh i swear i need to find something completly mindless to do to keep myself busy like video games LOL.. i guess the bottom line is sadly i miss my friend i miss the company and i miss the closeness. How do you just up and decide one day that it's all over and done and how do you just walk away? I never understood how it could seem so simple to do. i guess some people are just born with that little switch inside them that is easy to flip so that their emotions just go away when they want and they can play the part of heartless b*****d really well. It's a different wave length i guess. I guess my biggest problem with all this crap is closure because knows there has been none. no closure, no communication no nothing and i just cant manage to wrap my mind around. i refuse to rant even though i started to. Funny not what i ment to do. So on a different subject this week has sucked though thankfully my teeth are feeling better after my dental work. there was a time though i thought the pain would never poof. Life is kind of at a stand still now for me. Ahhh the single life in the village not much of a view granted but at least it is predictable LOL... Though i am getting very tired of the view it's been months and months and i have to be honest i am starting to get cranky. well it's almost one in the morning and i am getting sleepy and am starting to say things i might not be happy with later <smiles> more time to rant again soon..


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