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I feel like I should hurt myself. Things are my fault. I should be punished. Or at least, thats how I feel. I wish that I could. I wish so hard sometimes. But I made a promise, and I've broken enough already that I don't want to break another. And not this one yet again, thats for sure.

But oh, how I can wish. And imagine, picture it clearly. I must be crazy, to actually want it. To think about it so... so lovingly, you could say. And yet, how long has it been since I last harmed myself? You would think after so long the urge would dissipate. Maybe it would if I stopped carressing it in my mind.