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Long time have passed since I don't write here and I thought , maybe I could write about something that have cursed me through my whole life, and not only me but many.

Sometimes I write my entries with certain moods, sometimes happy, sometimes funny, but in this entry I will open up moderately, with feelings of sadness and reality.

Sometimes We love, and sometimes we could get to love someone in ways we don't know, and will never know. The kind of love that make you give your life for a person, and Im not talking about the tipical teenage love which can get to be ridiculous, the girl wants a prince, the boy wants sex (in most cases not all of them) you see its a bad mixture of feelings, the time the girl wants to be with a CUTE guy (because it always need to have a ******** exterior beauty) and then she start saying she will love him for ever (because he is ******** cute) and the boy in the other hand think, wow, I'm really going to get this chick down (in a negative way) and only wants sex, and because the girl love the ******** cute guy, she will do whatever he wants to do with her, including sex, because must teenage feel that sexual attraction at that age (boys specially) I know because when I was 15 even if only for some days, I feel that way but soon I learned that sex and pleasures were just nothing, useless and worthless, only a good time that was it and that it is now, and sometimes good guys like me who try to be as gentle as possible, those good guys fall in love, but since some of us don't look that well, at least not like the ******** cute guys, then bad luck comes for us when it comes to love.

I have Loved hardly, kind of loving that send a man to his grave, but after my last dissapointment, I realize that it was not worth crying for a person who just like a physical exterior....anyways I wouldn't like to be a ******** cute guy, why would I want to be loved for what I look like and not for what I am? Does are the kinds of question that rounds through my head every time a think about it.

I have seen the girls I use to liked and/or loved suffer and ending up in very bad relations, but I guess that's what comes right after you refuse a Good offer, Im not saying I'm the best man on earth, but I can give my life for someone that I love without hesitation, only that nobody have give me the opportunity to show it, and until that time comes, my best side will be sleeping on a deep sleep.

I always ask myself, where do I fail?? I have treat the girls I have liked as best as I could, but thanks to me not been a ******** cute guy well, I fail, and that's what I lacked, the pretty boy face, if it was not for that, maybe I would have a nice girlfriend, and when I said nice I mean in personality.

Why does the Good people have to suffer, while the ******** losers triumph?? I don't know....but all I have to know is that this just prove that most girls are ******** stupid or just plain sexual addicts, I don't like insulting females, but I need to in this paragraph, WHY??? just WHY???

Bottomline: All I want, is for one girl to show me they are not all the same. And when that day comes, not only I will be the happiest man of the world, but she will also be the happiest girl in the world...I can swear that.

Farewell