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*Sighes* I am feeling down, feeling so rough...its really hard....I just want to be with him...yet I am feeling so much pain that I wonder if I'm really worthy...the way things are going....I'm just a worthless piece of s*** afterall says my IRL family...gawd...the support I wanted...is just hurting me so much....I just want to cry, but i have to keep up my reputation....I don't want others to feel sad because of me...gawd I'm so weak...I hate being a burden, thats why I hide my true feelings when I'm online....not many cares for me...those who do...they are the ones I hate to hurt....thats why I want to suffer alone....gawd....I want to be with you so much tiger...but the way things are going...please just let me die Zack....but i can't die...I'll just hurt more people...thats why I'm so trapped in this world....not many understands, when some do...the solution is hard to find...and all i get is pity...which leads them to feel sad...thats why I hate this feeling...I'm really so pathetic...it really hurts....I hate being a burden....please I just want it to end, but i can't let it....people i care here would feel sad...gawd I'm so trapped....so trapped....

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an Iceberg
Waiting to change,
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like
the water,

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world
to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers
and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

Then the fire fades away
most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world
Ohh.... the other side of the world
You're.... the other side of the world
To me.