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Who would have thought that a heart that swears off love can still be hurt by it...? Many hours I spent trying to reach you, insisting that I only found attraction from your looks. But how can it be that each time we speak, we never get past "hello?" How can it be that you can so easily allow yourself to someone else, but never to me? How is it that when we see eachother, you don't even remember who I am. How is it that I care so much about how you act!? Why is it that it hurts when you whisper "I love you" to someone else? Why is it that my fantasy and dreams surround you, when I know I don't love anymore? Why can't you see the pain you unknowingly inflict on me? Why do you choose him over me!? I know I can't be your favorite, nor your second favorite, and your third favorite is probably taken too. But I want to be someone special to you. I want you to look at me and smile at me. Smile as though you know I exist. Smile as though you care one way or the other for me -about me. But it doesn't matter. I don't love, after all. Love hurts too much. But what about lonliness. What the hell am I suppose to do about that!? And jealousy!? You admitted that you didn't want to meet anyone else, but in the same breath say 'I love you' to the person you admitted that to. How am I suppose to act after that!? How am I suppose to not feel pain for something like that?? I don't love... But I still hurt... Sebarae · Sat Nov 19, 2005 @ 04:48am · 0 Comments


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"You're so cold; keep your hand in mine..."
Race: Siberian Husky boy -not- a catboy
Age: looks 17
Currently: Human form

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