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I've been thinking a long time, and this has finally got it's answer, everything I make seem so original, but when people Rp with me, they seem to think it goes to fast or lost track with what they a doing, it doesn't matter no more, as I have made up my mind on closing my topic and moving on like a normal RPC, people who RP with me before and find me fun and enjoyable, you can search me up.

But the again this has finally close up with a good answer, and I know you would feel hurt and sad about my choice, its made so well and it has gotten such a beautiful start, why close it.

Well it doesn't matter no more, since I have more matter to worry about and think about, you can all hate me and block me on your gaia list, it doesn't matter, because i go threw these problems everyday.

At the sametime I have enjoyed Rping with you all, and the answer that suddenly came must have suprised you all, I am sure all you think is. Ocean is such a strong girl, I am sure she can handle things without problem, well yes I can handle things very well without asking people to help me or support me, because I am strong and will minded.

I wanted to keep scented candle so much is because I want people to have fun as staff and as themself, but as Karismas said, its going too fast people can't catch up.
Or the topic is too story based, and its getting more and more to join and enjoy.

I have taken this painful truth, and I have deside to not start any more topic, because I don't want people to say I am selfish and mean, and people who thinks I am mean and cold hearted, think that way about me.

I have suffer more than people have in the past, and I stood back up to face them, and if you think I should close it, please leave your comment here and I'll reply to you soon.
Ocean

P.S: Feel free to PM if you want to know why I suddenly made my mind up, I want to keep it, but some reason there a people who can't catch up, and it really hurts me since people think I am selfish, then again I really don't know what to say or what to answer, I will answer your PM so don't worry, but if you think I will start another topic again I promise you I will never ever start another RP topic no more, I will join only, and no longer make my own, because it moves too fast and then again you can say I man mean selfish its up to you, block me if you want on your gaia list, because I sound mean and coldhearted, its up to you.

One thing I want to tell you all I do want to keep it, but I made up my mind, tell me what you think.

P.SS : I can't sleep right now I feel hurt and I haven't cry so much in my life time, since there is noo ne to talk to me it doesn't matter, it reminds me the time I made myself lose my only dad that loved me deeply, this wound stings and yet I had to deal with it, if I could turn back time I wish I was the one dead...

it hurts so much right now, and yet there no one to hold me.
jow could people understand the pain i am going threw, the words in my heart and mind, i am so upset right now, i just know i am selfish and mean, it hurts it hurts....
i wish someone could love me... it hurts so much
doesn't matter the pain had just string itself right into my old wounds, right now my mind is numb and abused, what am i thinking, i am thinking of looking for a RP that can abuse my soft / kind self to a point it's scared which twistes me to darkness.

oh how much it stings and numbs me right into my heart, i can bearly breath... if you think i'm asking for pityness your wrong... you should see how much i am rolling around the bed grasping for air in pain, laughing at me and bullying me on how weak i am... oh wouldn't it make your dream come true to see me in pain.

this scare will remain as it is, and don't worry i will be as hurted and twisted from who i am from today onwards, i don't think that tender sweet angel loving girl will return to your face anymore... laugh and block me as much as you all want, this is how its going to start and watch how people going to leave me.... oh i can't breath... i ate 2 pain killers already and it still hurts.