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Man, am I glad to have Thanksgiving break later this month! 'Sides, I've about had it with school anyway. blaugh

Anyway, I had a somewhat decent day today. It only ended on a sour note and that's what I'm pissed off about! scream

Do I really need a lecture on how to manage my time?! If I wanted to spend some time down at the bowling alley, then let me, goddammit! Jesus, my teachers are worse than my mother sometimes! stressed

Besides, for one thing, Dave is asleep when I get in and my mother's still at work! Therefore, it leaves me with nothing to do until like later in the evening! I mean, what kinda s**t is that?! God, it pisses me off to no end!

*draws a deep breath, relaxing a little bit*

I dunno, maybe I'm just cranky today... I don't know why though. I mean, I'm pissed when I should be happy, I'm alone when I'm with friends and I feel like I'm dead when I should be alive. Half the time, I don't even know why I bother with people and yet other times, I feel like I should be out there doing something with friends and family, you know, that kinda stuff?

I can't even seem to make up my mind, sometimes. Reason being is because I'm constantly dealing with turmoil and controversy that always starts whenever I say or do something out of the ordinary that winds up turning into a total hassle.

I wish I could stop it somehow... I mean, who knows, it might do some good for the people that I love and care for.

I mean, let's face it, people. I'm not a big celebrity, I'm not a genuis, I'm not some hot-shot sports star, and in no way in hell am I gonna be a professional... *thinks about it for a moment* ...anything! So why bother?

Like I said, I think I'm just cranky... I think I need to relax...