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Typically i am always and forever more,will be alone.
Like there is no one in this world for me...I am going to be alone..
Forever...Zut Zut Zut!!
For those of you who don't take french that means (Drat Drat Drat) So ya..
Un-Happy about this? Oh Ya!
Like seriously...Can anyone..deal with such loneliness??
Maybe that's why Leonardo De Vince Cut off his ear...Not out of love,
but out of loneliness....hmmm...damn maybe i should cut off a leg or maybe an arm
Or better yet...Stop living all together...Hmmm that sounds nice...
If you people reading this think i am emo, News Flash..from 2 points of view...
1st point of View... Emo is Short for Emotional,Which is a genre of music.
2nd point of View...I have been Depressed and Suicidal..for my whole life..but look i have been living and breathing since 15 yrs ago..And my confidence has been smashed to little pieces..like when i was little i was called "the prettiest Girl in the whole wide world" well then as i got older,i saw girls who were very beautiful..and then i started hating myself, for believing all those bullshit lies i was told..when i was little.
I am not Pretty,smart,funny,educated,nice,caring,lovely,or any other name my friends call me to make me feel better...
What i am is....Ugly,Self-centered,Scatter brain,Annoying,Stupid,pathetic...etc etc etc....
So because of all this "negativity" people say i use..I will be alone..But you know what i call it?
I call it being Realistic...i am NOT building myself up again...just to be knocked down...over and over again..as i start feeling better about myself...So yes i will be
alone for my entire life,for i am being realistic!!! so LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!