It is not what I want it to be, but it has became more than clear to me over time. I've been at a dead end for far too long. That's a brick wall ahead of me and I can't seems to smash trough it. I've been here for way too long and in life you can't go back. Even if I could there is nothing I could have done to prevent this. Well I could have killed my parents but the result wouldn't be much better than here. And who am I to take life.
If life was telling me one thing over and over again it would be telling me to take my life. It's so clear. Why should I listen to life? Will that get me to where I should be?
I say ******** you life. I'll just stand in front of this brick wall and paint graffiti on it.
If I had a choice as to what my destiny would I would want to be a person who would really make a change in this world for better. People say things are bad. Things have always been bad. Human nature is at core of it. Corruption, greed and lust for power. If we really stuck together we could make this a better place for all of us. And that would be my ultimate destiny to bring that change. Reality is that I'm weak and powerless. I hope for future generations that the change comes even if I won't bring it.
 niatsu · Sat Apr 11, 2009 @ 02:42am · 0 Comments |
