Ack, I'm using my sisters laptop, ew. The reason is because my laptop is being a real douche to me lately so I plan on converting it back to Windows Vista. FML. Well, it's not all that bad. I'll be able to play Counter Strike on my laptop again and start pwning pros. :')
Anyway, I was thinking about college and parties. And I'd like to state that I have come to realize I am not a party type. I mean, I love parties... but I've come to realize the only reason I'll grind and get 'ma freek' on is because I feel like I gotta do it to 'fit in' with the crowd. Now, being Hispanic? We're supposedly KNOWN to have wild and crazy parties. And we're known to like [********] whatever we think looks good. But I was born in a Conservative party... And my parents have always told me I don't need these 'extra' elements in my life. I can enjoy life by just having faith in who I am.
OH YEAH, LMAO. So I saw Dragonball Evolution and I gotta say... It was pretty bad unfortunately. But when I think about it, I realize I wouldn't have hated it if I was completely oblivious to the Dragonball world. I'm a sucker for special effects (I loved The Forbidden Kingdom, I know right?!) . I tried to watch the movie as if I was trying to watch an anime for the first time. I honestly think 20th Century Fox tried their BEST to make a Japanese Epic Novel into a Hollywood movie. Jesus, I'm getting side tracked. Anyway, for those who saw the movie I have come to realize that my Mom ALWAYS says the same thing to me like Granpa Gohan would say to Goku in the movie. It was the most overused line ever, "Always have faith in who you are." My mom LITERALLY says the same thing to me. And I always try my best to do that... But I have yet begun to see results.
Going back to what I was talking about, I'm not a party animal. I really am not. In fact, I'm shy. I just try to put on that mask by looking like a guy who totally gets laid a lot. Trust me, I'm very shy with my body and the only reason I'll ever get my freak on with girls is because people convince me into doing something I don't wanna do, and in the end I'll do it. It's not like they ask me to kill someone-- It's just I don't feel like grinding up on anyone. Again, I'm coming from a very conservative family where they view anything conservatively. From the way I dress? To the way I style my hair. Hell, it was hard to convince them to let me gel/spike it up when I realized my hair could pull it off. I'm really a shy guy when it comes to girls/women. I always get that comment where most girls say... "You're so different than the other boys."
It's true, I am. My parents tell me I'm different than most Hispanic young boys like me. I try my best to fit in, but it really doesn't work. I'll get teased at and messed around from time to time but it's really not like the way they treated Goku in the DBE movie.
I'm so shy and passive I would never hit someone just for the hell of it. I always follow that, "Only fired when fired upon."
I'm different. I think it's good. Some people do? Some people don't.
Some people just call me gay. Even though... I love women.
Dickheads. People always tell me they're "envious" of me whether they realize it or not.
I don't know who to listen to anymore.
I'm just gonna go with Granpa Gohan's and my Mom's saying.
"Always have faith in who you are."
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