Why I am the way I am
Well I don't like showing affection....it makes me feel different and I don't like it. I want to please people, but I don't like to give in. It seems that the closer a person is to me.....the more I want to push them away. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, but I always find myself creating a tense and stressful atmosphere. I don't know how to love myself....but I can help other people. I don't know why, I just don't want the ones I love to end up getting hurt if I ever leave or anything like that. I don't know what is wrong with me, but I know I have a problem with showing affection to the ones I care about most. Brandon I am sorry that I can't provide you with the affection you want. I just don't know what to do and it's hard for me and it frustrates me to know that I make you angry because of this problem I have. I will try harder and if all else fails, just break up with me and find someone new. Maybe it's for the best.
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