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Everything else is always gonna be more important than I ever was. I'll never amount to anything in your eyes. Why did I stick around for so long? Why did I put up with all the things you've done or said? It only turned me into a bitter person.

Bitter,selfish,hateful, jealous...All those things I became because of you. The saddest part is...I still love you.


Loving you has ruined me. And in some ways, it got me to take up for myself. It taught me to get up and go out there, unafraid of what anyone else thought...

Of course there were the times where I just felt unattractive. Inside and out, but then I'd tell myself, "Look what I have waiting for me? Look who's loving me?" If he loves me for me, then that's all that matters. No one else matters...

I was wrong. Everything I felt and thoughtis wrong. I can't be who I am anymore. I can't have what I've dreamt of having, I can't have the one person I truly ever did care for?

But the wall that separates me from what I want, is who YOU are. I think about how you've neglected me, how you've pointed your finger at me and told me I didn't like something becauseof you. It isn't true. I couldn't stress it enough.

Ihad my reasons. I had so many reasons why I didn't like things you did. Do you know what the only reason should've been though?

'We're two completely different people.'

I'm not you. You're not me. I'm glad you aren't me...but sometimes I question whether I like the fact that you do certain things differently than I do.

You leave me to go and do things with others, knowing how attatched I am. I wouldn't do that to you.

You forgot our anniversary. I didn't.

You yell at me and say I don't want you to have any friends. That again, isn't true. I do feel jealousy toward them, but you willnever wanna see why.

You sit there and listen to me beg to write something with me, and you tell me no because of a stupid comic that I would've had to do allthe work on...Then go off with strangers and work with them instead.

I don't mean anything to you. Perhaps I never did.