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Its been far too long since Ive posted here

Song: Afterlife (I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right. Such a surreal place to see, how did this come to be? Arrived to early)

Feeling: Dunno, pensive maybe

Someone said something to me today that got me thinking a little...
They'd said I'd changed. They aren't the first person to say this, just the first person in a while. Have I really changed? At the time, I think I might have hurt her feelings, but I wasn't serious, I was being sarcastic, that's nothing new, thus I must not have changed. I dunno, it's still got me pretty bummed though.

I miss my crest and I'm feelin' sort of distant. Its not her fault, and I realize she has to do it, but that only helps so much. I think I'm insecure with myself, but I cant see how that relates to her... I think I was feeling distant before she left for her tests, it just seemed that we didn't talk like we did before she was hacked. Lately I've been thinking of a way to get her to go to prom with me next year, but that'll cost a lot of money: Hotel room, dress, food, tickets, it all adds up, Ive calculated well over $ 500+, and at $8.50 and hour, thats 15+ days of work... but I think it'd be worth it. 3 or 4 days at a hotel (Thursday, friday, saturday, sunday), eating out each of those days (except a few, maybe she can eat at my house), renting a dress, heh, maybe a limo, I think its a good plan...