Well this coming Friday, May 22 my husband goes in for some back surgery. As with all surgeries there is a risk of death. But this one involves the doctor to work around his spinal column and hopefully they don't mess things up and spinal fluid doesn't leak, like I guess there's a chance that it could happen. Then he has 2 weeks, maybe 3 at the most to recover where he can not bend over for anything at all. So in a sense, I am his mother until he gets better. If he bends, theres a chance that the stitches near his spine could rip apart and the spinal fluid could leak and kill him. Ya thats great news to hear....
His grandma is gonna take him to and from the hospital, since I dont' have my temps and the idiot won't let me get them..... Ya I really wished he would, things would be so much easier. Plus my mom is going to take our son for the day of surgery and at least 2-3 days afterward. So if things do go well, I have that time to try to deal with this massive stress and hopefully get in a good routine with his care. Since that's gonna be the biggest part of stress. I don't even care if he's missing school. I can't handle him and his behaviour and then my husband going in for surgery. Especially since I completely depend on him for everything... not suggested to do by the way. And I never could deal with stress that well.
So here's hoping things go well. I'd pray to someone, but that involves me actually believing in someone and since I'm a atheist, that won't work to well LOL
I really hope that I can handle this stress .... umm.... decently. Where I don't go crazy from worry..... I really hate this. Death is the one thing that scares me the most out of anything else really.
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