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I cried... for the first time in.. forever.. i havnt dried ssince i was 5! ... a person.. the person i love most dearly in my life.. i have to dump him.. i cant make anything go right anymore..sure i love him like crazy..but i cant do it.. i cant i just dont know how.. im gonna miss him.. n i kno this is gonna hurt him... he was supposed to come down for the holidays... or thats how we planned it..i cant believe im doing this to him, so close.. he was gonna go shopping to buy me my necklace tomorrow.. why am i such a fool, god i wish i could die now.. but im stuck with living.. it isnt grace its punishment..