When you were little do you remember when you use to always bug your parents or try to show them something and they just brush you off saying that they are busy or your wasting there time. I remember how useless I felt. Like I never did anything right. Sometimes I would take it too seriously and cry. That is how I feel now. Like I am useless to the person I like. There is nothing I could show him nothing I could do to impress him. It would be just a waste of his time.
Bring powerless is never a comfortable feeling. You feel trapped, weak, and vunurable to anyone or anything. I just wish I was I more "impressive" person. I might be good even great and some things but, for me to impress the person I like I must shine and be outstanding. Show that I have the skills and I work hard that I am someone to acknowledge cause I am an amazing person.
Maybe I am too serious or maybe not? Makes me wonder what everyone else thinks. Especially him does he even care or know that I am working hard to present to him my abilities or is it just a waste of my time?
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Just some of my thoughts that I have am currently thinking about typed down for some type of later use.