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Well my life so far sucks a** i mean you would want to kill yourself too though I do things to get my mind off of it like drawing i'm doing a comic right now Mischief (single paged comics) talk to me if you want to know more. Well having reality thrown at you full force sucks i'll tell you that right here and now you think it's not that bad well cop a seat and let me tell you a little story about my dad a man a hard working man and man that works hard for his family he trys his best in anything he does though soon after he was diagnosed with cancer we thought yeah he is a strong man he can live through this after a couple a surgerys we were on a thread of hope some days he feel REAL sick some days he just himself soon after he had another surgery but is failed yup FAILED do i have to spell it? Anywaysfew days after he comes home just himself next thing you know he worse than ever soon after that he had to be on life support he couldnt get anything to stay in his stomach so he was fighting cancer AND starvation which ever one comes first I thought days after my mom told me "He cant fight no longer" I couldnt help but cry as those words stayed in me head making me feel nothing but grief and horror days after half of my fathers side of the family came me and my brother sat there in our room doing nothing moments after my god mother comes in and says "Come say goodbye to your father." At first I was confused but then I heard crying I came into the room there he was the greatest man I knew gone his journey complete this soldiers mission done finally complete no more fighting no more stuggling. Then his father told us what happened when they were giving him cnew clothes he took one final breath and his soul is now with God. It took me a few moment to realize "THIS IS LIFE HE'S GONE NOTHING CAN CHANGE THAT." I cried and cried till there was no more tears I tried to play the game but i couldnt i couldnt get my mind off of it it haunted me and it still is I always think of him the man who taught me how to be a man his work is done I guess this is why i dont open up anymore I guess this is why I just dont like the outside world anymore.......Give me a second I must stop crying.

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