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yo. WHAT'S UP?!?!?! anyway.... i guess i'm okay. i feel kinda lonely, but really hyper at the same time. i don't know why i'm lonely. i have almost everything i ever wanted. all i want now is to be able to go back to my school that i moved away from, to see my friends, and just be myself. i was forced to move, and it sucks. i like the new house and everything, but i just miss everyone so much. if i had never come to where i live now, i wouldn't be myself. i wouldn't be the person who i am today. I believe that there is a reason that everyone is on this world. i think my purpose is to make people happy, and make the whole world smile. my heart is telling me to go back, but is also telling me to stay, and to go new places too. i am confuzed, and not sure what to do, but i guess i'll figure it out along the way of my life. i try to help people keep hold of their innocence, and not to throw their lives away, no matter how hard or how bad their lives are, i tell them to keep going on, knowing that one day, it'll all be okay. yet, sometimes i can't even take my own advice. i have been hurt many times, and i didn't want to have anything to do with love anymore. but now, i changed my mind again. it doesn't matter how many times a person gets hurt, it's just the fact that you know that if they don't love you back, it's not true love. i confuze myself with true love, and a crush. it's really stupid really, but true. i always dream of having the perfect guy in my life, yet seem to be getting the wrong guys. i think and hope that it might have changed now, because i just feel comfortable around some guys more than others.
all i can do is wait for the right one to come to my doorstep, and take all the chances i am given. my life is set up for me, but without anyone knowing it. i'll just follow my heart, and do what i think is right, not care what others have to say. i'm independant enough, and i don't need anyone to make me dependant. i will never be dependant on a person, because it's my job to be independant and be there for them when they need me, so i can make them smile, even if it will be the last time that i ever see them, its worth every ache and pain to see them smile. if i could see everyone in the world smile, then i would die peacefully when i go. but since that hopefully won't be for a while, i have a lot of work to do before anything in my life changes.

peace out peoples! LUV YA!