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i dont think you can handle this s**t
my poetry. if you like it, thats great. if you don't, well, everyone has their opinions
makenzie's story. it's really good.
1. Drastic Change

How did I end up here? My carseat buckled up nice and tight as we hit I-79, passing Summer Hill, verging closer to our destination. My destination: my new home with my new mom.
She had just adopted me two days ago, signing almost 5 stacks of legal rights papers, finally being able to have me. But I never wanted her... I just wanted things to stay the same as they were a year ago.
"Now get some sleep Chaya," Dad said through the cracks of the door. My room was pitch black with only a silver lining from the door as a night light. I curled up in my bed and closed my eyes. That day, we had just got back from a fishing trip in Lake Erie and had come back home to Youngstown. I tried to remember what type of fish I caught as I drifted into a slumber.Was it a trout? no maybe it was ---
Suddenly, I heard a crash and sat up. Maybe it was my imagination... but just to make sure. I slowly got out of bed and tiptoed to the door. The light of the lamp that once lit the hallway was now shattered on the carpet. Glass and red dots filled the spaces of the floor. Blood? No, it couldn't be. My foot stepped carfully out of my room, but then pulled back in when I heard a gunshot from the end of the hall. At the end of the hall was my parent's room. Oh god... "NO!" I screamed, finally gaining the courage to run out of my room. I had to find out what was going on.
The door to their room was wide open.. and inside was too gruesome to think about again. All I wanted remember from that point on was the walls tainted with my parent's flesh and looking out of their window, seeing yellow demonic eyes and yelling and crying at them. "Why?!? You monster!!! I'm going to get you for this!! I swear-"
"Wer'e here!!!" My new mom shouted in the car, interuppting my horrid flashback. We were parked in front of a two-story brownstone house painted blue and white, the steps leading up to the front porch faded out from the sun. Weeds entangled the corners of the screen door and curled up the sides of the house. I gave a fake smile. "It's beautiful Mrs. Alderson.I didn't think that Pittsburgh would look so pretty." I replied. She glanced over the carseat, giving me a gleeful look. "I told you before Chaya, just call me Aunty. There's no need to be formal around here. This is your new home after all." I sat up straight and nodded. She openned the car door and got out, then openned mine for me. I got up, gathering all my bag that I packed from the orphanage. Inside were my clothes, cards from my friends there wishing me 'good luck with your new home', and one special thing: a handgun. The same gun that I found lying next to my mother when the 'incident' occured. I held my suitcase tight next to my chest. Someday, I would find that killer and kill him with his own weapon. That was my only promise.. and my only goal. Aunty tugged on my sleeve. " Do you need me to carry that in for you? It looks heavy." she asked kindly. I lowered the bag from my chest. "No, it's fine. But thank you for the offer." I said forcefully. She shrugged her shoulders and walked me up to the screen door.
"I hope you like old-fashioned, because I'm a very out-of-date person," she shouted as she took out a key and unlocked the door. I pushed it open with my foot. Stairs were the first thing that I saw, and as I looked over, I saw a living room decorated with old knick-knacks, a couch, and shelves among shelves of books. An old hand pointed to the stairs. "Your room is up there if you would like to see it." she explained. I nodded and escorted myself inside. The carpet looked like it wasn't cleaned in ages, and it probably wasn't seeming how every step I took up the creaky stairs, dust floated up. When I finally got to the top, I saw that there was only two rooms; one on the left, and one on the right. "Aunty, which room is mine?" I called. I heard a faint voice say "Left." Now with my suitcase flung over my shoulder, my elbow pushed open the next door. The inside of the room was a dull navy blue. Fortunately, there was also a futton bed folded up, a desk for school-work (which I would need for tomorrow) and a television. That was probably one of the only things in the house that Aunty renovated. Then again, she probably doesn't have alot of money to renovate, I mean, she is retired and she is about 50 to 60 years old. My watch beeped at me. It was 8:30 pm already? "Well, I need to get my rest... it's what they would want best for me. i don't want to end up sleeping in my new classes." I whispered to myself. I carefully set my suitcase down and unzipped the front pocket. My hands slowly pulled out the gun.
"I'm going to get you for this!! I swear on my life!!! You hear me!?!" The words from my past rang in my head like church bells. There was no way that I would let my goal slip away so easily just because I'm living in a different place. No way would I let that killer get away with such a murder. And how could they do that? Don't they have a heart? My body flopped on the futton, still holding onto the gun. It wasn't loaded so I wouldn't try to do something stupid in the orphanage, but now that I was free from that prison of lonliness, I could go to the drugstore the next day and buy the ammow I need. My eyes closed as I started to entwine myself with the bedsheets and doze off.
"Why?!?"
"I'm going to get you for this!! I swear on my life!!!"


I slipped on my plaid skirt and my tank top, getting ready for the first day of school. Looking at myself in the mirror, I was the same as my mother. Blonde hair and green eyes, the colour of the deepest forest. I was afraid of what it would be like to wind up there so late in the first semester of high school. Would the teachers let me off easy? After all, I didn't know anything about Pittsburgh except for the fact that it was big, wide, and new. Blonde hair and green eyes, the colour of the deepest forest.snagged my suitcase, which I would for now on use as a bookbag, and headed down the stairs in a rush. Aunty was on the couch, anxiously waiting for me with the same gleeful look that she had given me last night. "I made you breakfast if you'd like some," she told me happily, handing out a plate of pancakes. My mom used to make me breakfast every morning, and pancakes were my favorite.But eating them here with Aunty... " No thank you. I'll be late for school. " I lied, smiling to hide my pain. She pulled the plate back into her lap. "Okay, well have a great day then Chaya." she replied. I nodded and ran out the screen door. My legs almost tripped as they jumped down the steps, speeding across the sidewalk down under the bridge that seperated the East side of Sandusky Rd. and the West side. There laid my busstop. Well, not the real school bus, but the bus. I checked my watch once more. It was 6:20 am, and the bus should show up at around 6:25. Now if I could just run fast enough to get there in five minutes, maybe-- I lost my though when pulled me away from the road that I was once running into. A boy about my age held onto my arm. His eyes were grayish blue and his hair was a silverish-white. The buttons of his black coat scratching the surface of my skin.
"You need to watch where your'e going. You almost killed yourself by running out in front of that traffic." he said strictly. I ran into traffic? "O-okay.I'm sorry." I stammered. The boy let go of my arm and walked away. Wait, I couldn't let him just go away so soon! I caught up to him and tapped on his shoulder.He fliched,turned his head and sighed. "What do you want?" he asked. I bit my lip. What should I say to him? "Thank you." I replied slowly. In the background, I could hear the screeching of tires. He grabbed my hand and walked me across the street. " Now your'e going to make us late." he griped. He almost sounded sick for some reason.Us? He goes to the same school? Well, at least I know I now have either a new friend or a new enemy. He came to a hault and let go of me once more. I glanced at him, then stepped into the bus, taking the first seat. The boy got on next. I gestured him to sit next to me, but he sat on the other side of the bus. We began to move and i looked arond. It seemed we were the only two on the bus besides the driver. He watched me like a hawk, his eyes linked to every movement I made. I stared at him. " So what's your name?" I asked. He looked up. "Zero. Zero Riku. And you must be the new girl that Mrs. Anderson adopted?" he replied. I lowered my head, my bangs floing over my face. "Yes. Name's Chaya." Great.. I guess the whole neighborhood was waiting for my arrival or something. The sound of something moving by me came to my ears and I picked up my head. Zero was standing up in the bus. " Eh? What are you doing? I don't that's very safe." I explained. He sighed once more. " Wer'e here." The bus came to a complete stop and Zero started to walk off the bus. I got up and walked off with him. He turned around and whispered, "Stay safe, okay?" Before I could answer, he was off to his next class. The first bell rang and everyone was in a rush. But I kept watching Zero
"What are you doing? Don't you know class is about to start!" a voice cooed from behind me.My eyes averted to a girl with brown hair that curled into beautiful locks. Her face looked like it could be in one of the makeup commercials; so soft and smooth like cream. I shook my head. "I'm sorry... I'm really new here. And I guess I'm not in the spirit of getting around either." I muttered cautiously. The girl smiled. " It's okay. Besides, I know your'e new. Your'e Mrs. Anderson's new daughter right?" I glanced at where Zero once was. "Right," I affirmed, "But that doesn't matter now." A tug came on my hand and I was once again lead by another person. The pushing and shoving of the students that passed by us made me feel like I was a puppet on short strings. I need to stop relying on others to help me get where I need to go.
"Stay safe, okay?"
I will.

2. Abolishment


"Stay safe, okay?" Zero's voice purred in my head as I threw all of my homework in my suitcase.Safe from what? Another semi-truck? I wouldn't be able to stay safe if I was one day going to kill a murderer. The thought of pulling out the gun at the spur of the moment and murdering that vicious person made me shudder. The bell rang and a rush of footsteps broke the silence that once filled the classroom. It was probably time for lunch. Standing up from my chair, I paced myself as I got out of the classroom and out to the hall. Fortunately, the cafeteria was just down the hall and it wouldn't take only a minute or two to get there. "Hey!" a familiar voice roared. The girl that had escorted me to my first period class ran up to me, huffing. My mouth made another fake smile; in which I was pretty much getting used to. The girl put her hands on her knees as she caught her breath. "I... *huff* never got to *huff* introduce myself," she spoke in the calmest way she could, "I'm Anna."
"Oh, okay. Well, I have to get to the cafeteria and--" I was interrupted by her finger to my lips."I'm going to take you there." she confirmed. My head nodded once more as it had before and Anna conducted me to the cafeteria.When led inside, I was amazed. The halls were crowded with ruthless teenagers who looked like they were just from a snobby movie set. Everyone seemed to be at ease with each other. The only one that was really misplaced was me... then something came out from the corner of my eye. In the shadowy corner of the cafeteria laid only one person at a lonely table. Zero?I started towards him, then Annajumped in front of me. "Where do you think your'e going Chaya?" she demanded. I flinched. I had never adressed to her my first name in all the time I had spent with her. How could she find that out in such a short time?" I was just going to sit over there." I pointed towards the dark table. Some students that saw me poked there heads up from their conversations and glared at me. Anna gave me a stern look. "You can go there.. if you plan to get exterminated!!!" she bellowed. Now more students had caught the attention of me. Was I doing something wrong? "It's only Zero." I said quietly.
"It's only Zero," Anna mocked. Now my hand welded into a fist.What was her problem? "Look, Zero has a very bad temper and I don't want you to die because you made a stupid mistake by going over there!" she growled. My face now grew into a smirk."Then I guess I'll be the first to break that barrier." I replied. My hand pushed Anna aside and I slowly made my way to the back of the cafeteria. The whole academy seemed to be gossiping now of what I had just said. How could they think such thoughts of him? He was actually one of the most kindest people I had ever met; let alone a person i could think of as 'vicious' or 'bad tempered'. Those people mustv'e been insane or something.My body sat down in the chair across from Zero. He looked up through his bangs, then turned his head back down."Why are you here?" he ordered. I took a deep breath, then said, " I needed a friend."
"I'm not someone who you should be hanging out with. Didn't you hear the students?" he asked.I bowed my head. "Yes, but I don't care what the others say." The students that surrounded were now in awe.There whispers were all the same:'What the hell is she doing?' My eyes focused on the students, I whispered, "But if you would like for me to leave, I will. After all, I did cause you alot of trouble this morning." I spoke with heart in my words. Maybe I shouldn't be so attached to him; after all, I just met him. He was now silenced, and his happy expression faded."Mhm. You don't belong here." he muttered. With my suitcase still in hand, I ascende from the chair and turned around. Anna bit her lip, almost to the point where she bled, making me feel worse about thinking to sit with Zero.To make a rebelious judgement, then to be rejected was probably one of the stupidest things I have ever done since mom and dad were gone.Something brushed my hand and held onto it. My head cocked back to see Zero standing there, holding my hand. "I never said that we weren't friends." he said, accusing himself. My eyes now felt as if they were going to cry. No.. I couldn't cry in front of everyone. I shook my head and slashed my hand out of his grip. "I'll have to think about the 'friendship' thing again, now that you mention it." I announced.He lowered his head and crossed his arms across his waist. Why did he look so sick so quickly? Whatever. Anna reached out to lay a hand on my shoulder, but I pushed her away. This act that I was putting up had to end soon, for I was afraid that my tears couldn't be held back any longer. I'm too emotioal to even start this kind of crap, so why did I even try to act superior to Zero and/or the students here in the first place?
"I have to go." I whispered, running out th cafeteria doors and up against the walls. The first tear on my face ran down my cheek and fell to the floor; a painful sight for me to see. Sounds of ranting were coming from the cafeteria doors. For all I know, it couldv'e been the students griping at Zero or cheers of happiness. I didn't care for either situation though. I made a fool out of myself, and that's why I was crying. Nothing else. My hands covered my face to hide my sadness. If anyone to see me in this state, they might try to take advantage of me. The opening of doors were heard and my head sunk deep in my shoulders. No one should ever see me like

3.Alliance



"Excuse me," a voice asked. My poked out from my knees, tears making my face damp as hell. A tall male student with medium,dirty blonde hair kneeled down to where we were face to face. He was most likely a senior, maybe a junior like me? My eyes were so clouded up that I couldn't tell. He cocked his head to the side."Are you okay?" his voice seemed desolate, but he kept a blank face. I was about to wipe my eyes, but he wiped them for me."I'm just embarassed... that's all." I replied in a muffly tone. A smile began to form and his legs started to stretch out onto the floor so he could sit down in front of me. "Let me guess? You got food stuck in your hair?" he laughed. I shook my head. "I tried to be selfish and I got punished for it." The guy's bangs flung over to the right side of his head as he spoke. "Nah. You shouldn't be so hard on yourself. My bet is that your'e just making a big deal of it because it's your first day," his hand came under my chin and pushed a little upward. I bit my lip. Was he trying to make a move? The bangs of his face now scraped the edges of my skin as something like daggers began to push against my lips. "He-help." I whispered. The smell of blood potruding from my mouth frightened me. What was happening to me?Suddenly, I heard a gunshot and the guy skid across the floor. "Keep your filthy hands of of her Tsume!" a familiar voice demanded. My eyes averted over to Zero with a gun in his hand. My body wanted to move, but it seemed as if it was too weak or numb. The pressure on my lips seemed so strong now, though the dagger-like objects were away.
"Zero," I said weakly. He glanced at me with greif-stricken eyes."Duck down." he commanded. My head immediatly bowed as another bang of the gun firing was heard. A flick of blood splattered on my cheeck. Visions of my past started coming to me: the gore, the torture, and the horror. I looked up to see what was going on around me. Where Tsume once stood was a shadow of darkness; hands were now claws and it seemed as if a corrupted dark soul had been let loose.I gasped. Those eyes... they were stuck in my mind like glue. They looked so familiar. Zero kept firing at Tsume, his body trying to sheild me as I laid there on the floor as innocent as possible. How could I help him? He shouldn't be defending me, because I have protection. I unlocked my suitcase and unzipped the first pocket inside of it. The gun was still there and slowly I pulled it out. No more sitting around like a little kid. My hands pushing me up off the ground, I cocked it and pulled the trigger. Smoke rose and more blood rained from above as the shadow that covered Tsume now floated away as a mist. Zero turned around and stared at me in awe. How could only one of my bullets (and there was only one in there) take down the shadow when Zero used almost 13 bullets and nothing but bruises or cuts happened? It was so akward. My legs wobbled; the were so weak. I still didn't know tha solution to that either. Without warning, they collapsed from under me and I fell to the floor with my eyes closed."Chaya!" Zero called, running over to me. The bell for second period rang and something picked me up. He was carrying me? My eyes cracked open to see me close to his chest. Other students ran to their classrooms, not even taking their chances to look over in Zero's direction.My hand gripped his coat and tried to pull it close. "Ze-ro. What's going on?" He didn't answer... he just kept on walking me down the hall. My eys tried to search for Tsume, but no evidence of him was around. I don't think the students here even noticed that anything went on; and where did the blood go to?
"Zero... what's going on!" I urged. My strain on his coat was let go and it seemed like i had no energy left. He nuzzled my hair with his nose."Just keep breathing..."


4. Coming Clean


"Zero," I spoke only his name. I didn't need to say anymore; he was saving me from someone, or something and that's all that was really on my mind. He kept walking; out the door and down the steps to the sidewalk. I closed my hand into a fist. The gun! Where was it? Did I leave it behind?I tried to sit up,but I couldn't. "Don't strain yourself Chaya, just rest. You'll need it." he stated. We came to a stop when we got to a copper pick up truck. The dents in it frightened me, and what sat inside it made me even more scared. Tsume sat at the wheel. How did he get there so fast.. and didn't I kill him? My head swayed a little as Zero openned the car door with his free hand and set me down on the leather seats. " Just hold on, okay?" he whispered. I did best as I could to nod. For the first time, he gave me a small smile and shut the door, sitting next to me. Tsume twisted in his seat to where he faced me and Zero. "I'm sorry Zero." he apologized.
"Just give it back now!!!" Zero growled under his breath. Tsume bowed his head and glared at me. His eyes now seemed to glow with a yellow tint that shocked me from the inside-out. My body now shook uncontrollably and a mist of some ort seemed to sink into my skin that immediatly gave me more energy and strength. This was insane! What was going on in this place? Maybe my mind has been tricking me this whole time and it was all a dream. My finger pinched my skin; I didn't wake up from anything. Tsume's eyes now faded from a yellowish tint to hazel. "Done," he snickered. Zero stared at me. " Chaya, are you better now?" he questioned. I sat up.
"What did you do to me?" I asked. Tsume frowned."I don't think you'll believe us if we told you." Zero scooted away a little bit; closer to the window. Obviously he wasn't going to tell me. My eyes locked with Tsume's. "Tell me. Now." I demanded; I didn't want this to be put off to the side. Tsume nodded and scooted closer over the front seat. " I was eating your soul." he grunted. My eyes widened. A soul-eater? The only things I knew of that ate souls were... "Demons." Zero spoke in a harsh tone, almost as if he was hurt. "Wer'e demons. The worst creature on this earth; a killer worse than any insane human." All of a sudden, visions of my parent's death came to mind. I covered my mouth, afraid to scream. Those eyes that gave me back my soul and the ones that took away my whole life ahead of me now seemed connected.If what they say is true, and demons are real, and they're more deadly, wouldn't that mean that one of their kind murdered my parents? My future? Tsume turned back around and started up the car. The pick up truck seemed like it was so old, putting as he started the engine. Zero kept looking out the window, the sky now turning grey; most likely rain. I spoke through my hand. " Zero. Are you going to kill me?" He gazed back at me.
"Why would I kill you? Youv'e never done anything to me," he explained, "The one that should be killed is me." I gasped and uncovered my mouth, now tugging on his sleeve. "Don't think like that!" I exclaimed. The car jerked to a hault and we all jump from our seats. Zero strained himself from not staring at me. I kept going on."You just..just.." I stammered, tears in my eyes, "You just need to stay with me!" He flinched. "That wouldn't help. I'm not just a demon... I'm a demon hunter. And if it wasn't for you and that gun, I wouldv'e probably tried to maintain Tsume's demon myself. Or even worse. Killed Tsume for killing you." Tsume sat in silence as my hand that once held on to his sleeve now clutched his hand. "Then maybe, instead of just staying with me, we could become allies."
"What do you mean?"
"Make me a demon slayer."
"On one condition."
"Yes, Zero?"
"Kill me when the times comes."


xd xd xd xd i love this book! It's not mine, tho.





 
 
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