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Who am I? What can I tell you about me? Nothing, one cannot simply tell others about themselves. We can never, and should never be able to accurately, and confidently be able to explain ourselves from our own perspective. We are more than things we currently like, our jobs, our homes, our friends. I could no more tell you about me, than you could.
Perspective is both amazing, and damning. For I see things through different views, I feel differently, I think differently. But I never see things in their entirety, not in whole. This requires other perspectives. To truly know and see something. You need different perspectives all at once. You need yourself, your family, your friends, your job, your home, everything. This is truly impossible to see all at once. We are both everything in our lives, and nothing at all.
I can only tell you about myself from my own perspective. Do you truly want to know me? Truly wish to learn about me? Open your eyes, look around and ask others. It's the only way to truly grasp the entirety of everything. Don't just trust yourself, don't just trust others. Trust both. Knowing this, continue on and learn about a fraction of myself. Care to fill in the other parts?
I grew up in Oquawka, IL. I went to the grade school there, then to Union in Biggsville, Il. For 1st through High School. I made a lot of friends, shared a lot of memories. Met a lot of great people, and always wish I could meet those same people. But in the every changing scheme of the world, people change, places change, and we move on. Regardless of the emotional response this brings.
At 19 years of age I moved to Cookeville, TN for 3 and half years by myself. At the time it seemed like a good idea, life always seems like a good idea in the moment. Sometimes wouldn't it be grand to only exist in the moment? Don't look back at pasts perspective, or futures uncertainties. But alas, one can only grasp full concepts if they absorb everything. But ignorance can be bliss, self damning. But sweet, sweet bliss.
Living in Cookeville lead me to where I am now. I went through a lot there. Mostly a loss of others, a loss of high school friends, a loss of how life used to be. I ended up living alone, and becoming quite acquainted with loneliness. I learned about finding strength in yourself, about the limits of the human mind, and the importance of friendship. Again, you are more than what you know, or your friends. You are all of it.
In Cookeville I worked hard, I lived hard. I have always embraced the philosophy of doing everything physically, mentally, and spiritually possible for every aspect of your life. For yourself, your friends, your job, your interests, everything. Give all, or give nothing. I would go to work for hours, sweat and bleed for it. When you feel like giving in, and giving up. Go further, work harder.
Right now I am living in Davenport, Iowa. I moved here to be near my family, and an old best friend. Things never go as planned though. People change, places change, we all change. Despite the emotional response this all brings. Change still, and will forever happen. Ah, but wouldn't it be nice to look to the past and bring it forward? Wishful thinking and dreaming unfortunately doesn't work.
I like to laugh, I like to all around live. My days are spent working, my nights are spent smiling. I play on the weekends, and live the entirety of it all. I read comics, watch anime, spend time with those close to me. I jump around on stilts, and laugh as others join me. Life is full of twists, turns, leaps, and bounds. But no matter the case, I continue on. I do not know me, and you do not know yourselves. Life is ever changing, and under no ones control. All we can do is continue adapting, smiling, and living. In the end, our only regrets could ever be focusing on one perspective and not them all, past, present, future, yourself, your friends, the world. Embrace it all, or embrace nothing.
My name is Donald John Bothwell JR. Please, call me DJ. Excuse me while I go and live.
 XDvandalDJ · Sun Jul 12, 2009 @ 07:31pm · 1 Comments |
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