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i am getting sick of this. no really and i hate it that i cant shut up and change my self. i dont know what to think anymore. the computer used to be fun and away to disconnect. i hate the way i feel right now. i know i will get over it an hour from now or even tomorrow. that's my problem. i get over crap too fast. but i wait for it to come back.i just throw up. yes on purpose. i feel even worse i hope i did not hurt myself. i would be even worse off. thank god for my God. i want some1 that understands me. i dont want to be some self absorbed b***h that only cares for her self and her own "kind". i am so not like that and DONT want to be but there is no1 that is like me around here. or do i just want them not to be there so i can get attention by crying about all my crappy lil problems. i suck i really do. i dislike the way i feel. i want to be able to say and act like myself around others and be comfortable. i hate this. pples just need to leave me alone. oh, wait. they do. help dont help. shut up. talk louder. be here. be my friend. ur not. w/e. just whatever. i feel better now. i should do this more often. type out my thoughts. like them? i dont. they r stupid. arrow stare