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I wouldn't say my day has been promising, but it HAS been interesting; filled with unexpected forks in the road.
1. the prospects of a move have sent the house into a frenzy. we are all walking on needles here.
2. shipping our things has turned into more of a let's-see-how-it-goes thing instead of the easy thing it was supposed to be.
3. i sit on the floor of my room and leaf through notebooks from a simpler time. they hold so many memories, it makes me sick to think of tossing them in the trash, but i have to. to full trash bags of my things and more on the way. it hurts to see how much my life has changed; how things that used to mean so much to me can be so maningless now, but whenever i passed a poem in a book that really caught my eye, i kept it. i have a shoebox full of pages torn from binders, notebooks, and journals. it's amazing how much of myself still is going to be along for the ride. that thought alone gives me strenght.
4. and the only thought on my mind, is my mother. her eyes are rimmed with worry. i can read doubt in every move she makes. it frightens me that she is struggling with this so much. i feel like she should be my rock and she is crumbling, but all is not SO lost. if she is stumbling, i am more than ready to take up where she left off, she merely needs to show me what to do.. mall later on in the week with amber..should be tonss of fun :]