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Self Conclusion (A Suicide Song...)

Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand the edge of the world

Excuse me sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right

My reply

Excuse me miss,
But do you have the slightest clue
Oh exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?

She said "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said " I know but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, We all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conlusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside of me has died

My reply
Trust me girl
I know your legs are pleading to jump
But I offer you this easy choice, instead of dying living with me

She said "Are you crazy, you don't even know me"
I said "I know, I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, We all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified notion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose

"Alright, you win, but I only give you one night,
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
And I swear if you hurt me
I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"

"Settle precious, I know what you're going through,
Cause ten mintues before you got here I was gonna jump too"

Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery get


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I wish I could...actually do that....
I have attepted to commit suicide. D:

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I'd rather bleed my blood
then see tears fall from your eyes.
I'd rather die
then have you mad at me..
Can't you see
I'm heart broken that you don't believe me and don't trust me.
theres only one simple thing keeping me here.
that'd be you and someone else.
No matter what try to remember
if I go it was thinking of you.
its not all that horrible when your down like me
to act a fool.
its not that hard to say you'll do something and never do it.
I tried to never say never it didn't work
I failed epically at trying to please you.
why can't I be good enough for you to see that I'm just like you.
I can't help but think of how it is.
I guess this would be all I'd have to say to you
I'm sorry but I think I might have to go.
So this is good bye for now
please take care and remember that when i go all I thing about is you.