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If i were no longer alone i think i would have gone completly insane by now. I wouldnt be able to bare all the attention. I hate getting alot of attention and when i get it i just want to run away. It scares me sometimes when someone says 'I want to be with you' i havent heard those words in the same sentence for about 2 years. When that person told me that i pushed them out of my way and ran. I dont fully understand why i do it. I...i really dont know. I think that the next time someone says those words to me I am going to grab them and kiss them. I just need to think it over some more, but i am sure i am going to do just that. Cause when that moment comes I am going to be sure that, that person i can actually trust and keep forever in my heart. I know i will be able to tell them my deepest of deep secrets. And if i am wrong, and they didnt mean those words. I swear i will run away forever and never trust another human being in my entire life.