You'd think my parents wished I was never born, every time my sister does something they don't like they blame it on me, as if it's my fault.. it's my fault she swears, it's my fault she's messy, it's my fault she's a snob, it's my fault she doesn't listen, it's my fault she's impolite, it's my fault she refuses to sleep in her own room, it's my fault she doesn't have a real room,it's my fault my fault my fault.
I never even spend time with her, my parents refuse to let me spend any time with her other then the occasional reading her a book cause they wont. and it's my fault she runs around and says the B word and the F word when my dad shouts those words at his games when she's sitting right behind him.
I read her books, occasionally watch TV with her, and occasionally go to the park with her(not anymore cause we already told her that if she swore again no more park)..
and just now I heard my dad yelling at her saying he's not gonna have another kid that acts like me... cause I'm so horrible and awful, I'm such an ingrate... I don't ask for anything except for art supplies and occasionally some veggies, I've never asked to barrow credit cards nor have I stolen from their purse's/wallets. Yes I've gone through them took out a dollar bill and asked "can I have this?" and if they say no put it back. yea as a small child I threw things, but not plastic toys, or books, i threw stuffies that if it hit someone it wouldn't hurt them much if at all. I never did what I was told not to, until I was 16 and got fed up with my parents saying no to EVERYTHING. no you can't go to the park cause it's more then 2 blocks away, no you can't go downtown, no you can't have TV but your brother can, no you have to go to bed at 9 even though your a junior, no we can't trust you, your a whore... yes my own mother called me a whore pretty much and said I sleep with anyone I see on the street...
the way their raising her, oh she'll be a hell child, she'll just take what she wants, money, car keys, steal alcohol... if she wants it she'll just take it cause that's what she's doing now and there are no consequences. if she isn't getting her way she'll throw things at you, scream at you, just be a complete monster.
My bf and his brother and even my own brother see it, my parents how ever are blind to it, they try to justify things she does and say I was worse if I say anything, I got disciplined for things I did, yea my first word was the B word and I got scolded for it, I was 1... she's almost 4 and saying them cause she thinks it's funny and we are the ones who get in trouble. once my bf's brother said "son of a monkey" and she goes and says right after him "son of a ... b***h" and started giggling and ran away cause she knows she's not suppose to say that.
if she thinks I'm doing something wrong she'll be like "i'm telling mom"... whether i'm just cooking, wont let her in my room, wont let her see my mice or just wont let her do something she doesn't need to be doing. And then come running back saying mom said I have to let her...
Sorry hearing my dad tell her he wont have another child like me just pissed me off.. that's like he wishes I was never born... like I'm that bad. I'm the scapegoat in this family, all my family members hate me and even if I'm not there I get blamed. the only one who isn't like that is my grandmother. she doesn't think I'm stupid just cause I dropped out of high school, or because I refused to do the school work, or other things that have nothing to do with intelligence, she doesn't wish I was never born, heck I think she even enjoys spending time with me, and enjoys or conversations(most of the time)
before this huge thing drags on any farther and gets way off what I was bitching about...
anyways yea... ******** you if you think I'm being a self absorbed baby... I'm just sick of my parent acting like I'm the worst human being alive.
I never even spend time with her, my parents refuse to let me spend any time with her other then the occasional reading her a book cause they wont. and it's my fault she runs around and says the B word and the F word when my dad shouts those words at his games when she's sitting right behind him.
I read her books, occasionally watch TV with her, and occasionally go to the park with her(not anymore cause we already told her that if she swore again no more park)..
and just now I heard my dad yelling at her saying he's not gonna have another kid that acts like me... cause I'm so horrible and awful, I'm such an ingrate... I don't ask for anything except for art supplies and occasionally some veggies, I've never asked to barrow credit cards nor have I stolen from their purse's/wallets. Yes I've gone through them took out a dollar bill and asked "can I have this?" and if they say no put it back. yea as a small child I threw things, but not plastic toys, or books, i threw stuffies that if it hit someone it wouldn't hurt them much if at all. I never did what I was told not to, until I was 16 and got fed up with my parents saying no to EVERYTHING. no you can't go to the park cause it's more then 2 blocks away, no you can't go downtown, no you can't have TV but your brother can, no you have to go to bed at 9 even though your a junior, no we can't trust you, your a whore... yes my own mother called me a whore pretty much and said I sleep with anyone I see on the street...
the way their raising her, oh she'll be a hell child, she'll just take what she wants, money, car keys, steal alcohol... if she wants it she'll just take it cause that's what she's doing now and there are no consequences. if she isn't getting her way she'll throw things at you, scream at you, just be a complete monster.
My bf and his brother and even my own brother see it, my parents how ever are blind to it, they try to justify things she does and say I was worse if I say anything, I got disciplined for things I did, yea my first word was the B word and I got scolded for it, I was 1... she's almost 4 and saying them cause she thinks it's funny and we are the ones who get in trouble. once my bf's brother said "son of a monkey" and she goes and says right after him "son of a ... b***h" and started giggling and ran away cause she knows she's not suppose to say that.
if she thinks I'm doing something wrong she'll be like "i'm telling mom"... whether i'm just cooking, wont let her in my room, wont let her see my mice or just wont let her do something she doesn't need to be doing. And then come running back saying mom said I have to let her...
Sorry hearing my dad tell her he wont have another child like me just pissed me off.. that's like he wishes I was never born... like I'm that bad. I'm the scapegoat in this family, all my family members hate me and even if I'm not there I get blamed. the only one who isn't like that is my grandmother. she doesn't think I'm stupid just cause I dropped out of high school, or because I refused to do the school work, or other things that have nothing to do with intelligence, she doesn't wish I was never born, heck I think she even enjoys spending time with me, and enjoys or conversations(most of the time)
before this huge thing drags on any farther and gets way off what I was bitching about...
anyways yea... ******** you if you think I'm being a self absorbed baby... I'm just sick of my parent acting like I'm the worst human being alive.
