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Well, this weekend is my first book signing. I've already been speaking to groups but that's the pimping I've got to do. I guess that's just how I roll. I hope I see some folks who spark an inspiration for another book that is coming up soon. I just have to be inspirated and odd looking people definately do that for me. Do I make fun of them? Sure, but I am built like that mentally. It's always, and I mean always, done behind their back. I feel safer that way, and keeps me from having to fight. Eventhough I get intrigued, I can come up with a story immediately by oddities. I actually think I would be a bore if there weren't those around that interest me. I, myself, have OCD so I am a sight to see anyway. God help if someone shuts a door all the way because then I am in the room for hours trying to get it to open smoothly enough to feel good to me.

Although I am excited about the book signing I also have extreme anxieties that I may have to go to the bathroom. This fear has built until I would rather pee myself than use a public toilet. I've been so extreme that I would stand on my own toilet and squat to pee then try some kind of tai chi movement to flush the toilet without breaking my ankle. I will try not to drink anything before I go to avoid that situation.