My thoughts on a few things
- Why does the sun follow my shadow?
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There is so much beauty in the darkness but not many can see it, they see a dark and blackened void they cannot cross or is it that they don't want to, could it be that they prefer not to know what lays ahead. The lustre, the sparkle. It's as if the sky, the wind, the trees are whispering something to you eerily; making the most beautiful sounds with nothing but a breath of crisp night air. It's beautiful in all it's glory the wonderful mystery of the night sky. We all fear what we don't know- but i find solace and peace where others find creepy formless superstitutions, but it is often in these places where i think my best and wisest. The silence is beautiful and calming, soothing like a perfect orchestral concerto, there's a depth to this that cannot be described by regular means but by a sensation we all feel - invigoration. Like the adrenalin rush one gets just before they jump off a bridge into the icy water below. They know serious injury or death is awaiting them, but they fear nothing, it is the choice one makes that determines his character and also his allegiances. We all are like the darkness with the suns shining rays over our shoulders. We are blinded by sunlight because we turn our backs to the dark void behind. Also we are blind by peering into the darkness with our backs to the warm and life-giving sun. Either way you choose to look at it, we are all blind. If only for a brief moment in life do we have the pure pleasure to know what is ahead of us. I deeply love both the sun and moon, the light and dark, the energetic and the chaotic. It is all so beautiful. I look at both the sun, moon, stars and universe and it pleases me to admit that even though i can't always see both the sun and darkness at the same time, i am happy in the knowledge that both are always looking over my shoulder filling my shadow with life. Thank the heavens for making life and all that is great possible.
When i was younger all people ever expected from me was to be obedient, loyal, trustworthy, kind, caring, compassionate and smart. Well for the most part i was all of those things, however, i must admit i hated being that way, but i had to. I had no choice, at a very young age how many choices could one possibly have. You can't speak because your voice is either restricted, non-existent or numb. When i was a kid i just did as i was told, i kept secrets when people told me to keep them and i was 100% loyal to any cause that prevented my loved ones from harms way. But all that while i didn't realise that none of that thinking or those choices were mine. They were from others, not from within me. I used to put on a brave face, pretend that i had no problems but deep down i knew that there was something missing, something i knew i couldn't accquire through talking or thinking. It took me a long time to realise that no one can speak for you. Everyone has their own unique voice, their own unique vision, their own unique destiny. I haven't found my destiny yet. It will probably be awhile until i find anything close, but i'll keep seeking it. What i have noticed is that even though i never thought for myself, i've also never been by myself. I have people all around me. Who love and cherish me. My family and my friends, my pets and my treasures. I don't mind if i never find my destiny or rather that it finds me. All i know is, i truly enjoy life with all its ups and downs. If i could go back in time and change a few things, i wouldn't touch anything. I would leave everything as it always was. You see, i dont need destiny or fate to find me or i it. I've been living it all along'.
