My so called 'bestfriend' since 4th grade tore me apart last night.
He does drugs, he smokes cigs, he parties, he drinks, he skips school. He just doesn't care anymore...
And you know what his reason for that was?
He blamed me.
For not loving him.
I do love Jon! He's like my brother. I care deeply for him. He's family.
Me and Jonathan grew up together. We were all nerdy and into dragonolagy, and we played pokemon together, and we always under stood each other.
Then I guess Jon fell in love with me.
I didn't feel the same way.
So his way of coping with it was sex and drugs.
And he blamed it all on me.
It's all my fault.
Rachel never does anything right, Rachel's a slut, Rachel breaks everyones heart, Rachel's ugly, Rachel's fat, Rachel doesn't give a damn.
I do everything wrong!
I'm never right.
I never do anything right.
It's all my fault.
Jon's not Jon and it's all my fault...
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Maybe he has feelings for you...but if he did he wouldn't have blamed you...is that what lovers do these days? Take all their baggage and dump it on someone else?
He's making an excuse...if it's all your fault, in his eyes, then he has no reason to change how he acts. By blaming it on you he is shirking his responsibilities so he can feel better about the lifestyle he lives right now. He's doing what all little kids do...blame somebody else "Oh he/she made me do it" But that's not true...in the end your the only one who can decide what happens in your life.
If you want him to change, you need to get him to realize this, that he's blaming others for his problems...but the truth is the problem is him.
So sis believe me it's not your fault. ={
Stay strong!
Big Brother