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PAN PAN'S PEN
A wonderous place for me to store my crap
ANGSTYMELODRAMU
Here is an excerpt from Yashy's and my RP that I found to be particularly
FULL OF BI-POLAR ANGST
and as some of you know
I EAT ANGST FO BREKFAST
NOM NOM NOM

Alden - Yashy
Elexi - Marz

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Elexi scowled playfully and pulled the shirt over his head, or at least he tried to. It got stuck over his face as he attempted to pull his arms through the sleeves. "Uhg...woah...ACK!" He cried as he teetered clumsily and fell into Alden, knocking them both to the ground. "Uhh..Oh.. S-Sorry Alden!" Elexi's apology was slightly muffled from the fabric of the shirt. He wriggled his arms around some more and managed to finally free his head from it's previous entrapment. "Hey! I finally got my head through!" He exclaimed triumphantly.

Alden simply laughed. Elexi was too cute for his own good. “You’re not hurt are you?” He asked, bringing a hand up to rub around Elexi’s hair and mess it up. Alden got up off the floor and helped Elexi up as well. “The faster we find you pants, the faster I can make you tea and pancakes.”

"No I don't think so..." Elexi's voice trailed off as he looked himself over, making sure no injuries were sustained during his little tumble. When he was certain that he was no worse for ware he looked back up at Alden and grinned. "How about you? Have any boo-boo's I need to kiss better~"

“Well, I seem to have this little cut on my lip here…” Alden puckered his lips at Elexi. Maybe Elexi didn’t need those pants right now…. Alden was seriously starting to consider taking the change of [********] Elexi silly before anyone got to the house.

"Hummmmm....I don't think I see any cut there...." Elexi laughed slyly as he leaned in closer and inspected Alden's lip. He brought his hands up to Alden's face and let his fingers gently outline the perimeter of his mouth. "No...no cuts here..." Slowly he turned Alden's head to the side and lazily dragged his fingers across the other's jaw. Elexi brought his face closer still. "Oh...whats this?" He exclaimed, while caressing the side of Alden's neck. Elexi moved in closer, his lips hovered millimeters from the other's flesh. "Oh..false alarm, it's nothing." Elexi giggled as he pulled away from Alden and turned his attention to the closet. "Quit being a baby and go make me some pancakes."

“Tease.” Alden murmured. Just as he began his way out Alden copped a nice feel with an open palm slap on Elexi’s bare a**. He laughed and hurried on out and into the kitchen to start making breakfast.

"WAHH!!!" Elexi yelped, jumping at least a foot in the air. "ALDEN YOU PERV!! I'LL GET YOU FOR THAT" He reached into the closet and grabbed a pair of the smallest black pants he could find, slipped them on, then raced into the kitchen after Alden laughing maniacally. Elexi stood in the doorway to the kitchen, huffing and puffing heavily. He raised his arm, pointed at the other and screamed "YOU'RE A DEAD MAN!!" Then ran across the kitchen and jumped onto Alden's back.

Alden actually anticipated this and readied himself so that he wouldn’t topple over. Elexi wasn’t a strain on his back at all, what with their size difference and all. Alden grasped Elexi’s thighs around his hips tightly and quickly ran out of the kitchen with Elexi and back into the bedroom, throwing Elexi down onto the bed. “Find some actual pants, you goose!” Alden laughed and ran out of the bedroom, closing the door behind him.

"AGAIN AGAIN!!!" Elexi cried as he rolled around on the bed waving his arms madly. He sat up and yelled back at Alden in the kitchen. "HEY! THESE ARE ACTUAL PANTS! WHAT'S WRONG WITH THEM? DO YOU NOT WANT ME TO WEAR ANY PANTS? BECAUSE I WOULDN'T MIND THAT AT ALL YOU KNOW!" Somehow he managed to wiggle his way off the bed. Elexi sat on the floor and looked over at the fluffy grey cat who was still napping in the sunlight. "Hey Mr.Cat~" He chirped as he scooped the feline up into his arms and started petting him again. Elexi made his way across the room and opened the door. "That was awful mean of Alden to just DUMP ME on his bed like that wasn't it Mr. Cat." He cooed, raising the cat up to his face so he could nestle his nose in it's soft fur. "I think Alden needs to be punished for being so baaaaad." Elexi shot Alden a sultry glance as he stood in the doorway to the kitchen, leaning casually on the frame, still cuddling with the large fluffy kitty.

Alden was now getting together the things he needed to make some puffy butter milk pancakes. He saw Elexi with Issie out of the corner of his eye while getting out the large pan he’d be using. “Issie’s not too heavy for you?” Alden asked. “She must have lost a little weight.” Alden knew Elexi was planning something. From the yelling he heard and just guessing Elexi’s personality he knew the kid would be planning something. Alden was just hoping it wasn’t destructive to the house.

"Pffttttt" Elexi scoffed. "As if a fluffy kitty like this would be to heavy for me. I don't look that frail do I?" He made his way across the kitchen to the table and sat down, placing the fervently purring Issie on the floor. "I used to take down guys four times my siz-......." Elexi froze. His arms went limp. " I...used to....take down....guys four times my size?" He said again in a robotic and distant tone. The flood gates of his memories burst open and visions of violence and pain rushed into to his head. Elexi screamed and started slamming his head down on the table. "STOP!....STOP!.....WHY WONT IT STOOOOOOOOP! I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER THIS!! I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER AT ALL!!"

Alden dropped all that he was holding and ran over to Elexi, grabbing him to stop him from banging his head on the table. “Hey, Hey!” Alden spoke loud and firmly as he tightly cupped Elexi’s face in his palms so that all Elexi could see was Alden’s incredibly concerned face with green eyes that just exploded with fretfulness. “Elexi look at me! It’s okay! Calm down! Please!”

"ALDEN!!!" Elexi screamed shrilly as he was shaken from his trance. He thew his arms around the other and sobbed heavily into his chest. "I-I...don't know what happened... I just...just..." He pulled away and looked around the room wildly. Elexi couldn't even finish his sentence before blood once again started to drip down his nose and into his mouth. "Alden...I'm so scared!"

“Hey, don’t worry.” Alden cooed in a soft soothing voice, while grabbing some Kleenex off the counter quickly. “I’m right here. Nothing is going to happen to you, alright?” He told, wiping away the blood on Elexi’s face. Alden lovingly placed a kiss on Elexi’s forehead and then rested his against it. Alden closed his eyes, his long eye lashes just barely brushing against Elexi’s. “You don’t need to be scared anymore. You’re safe with me."

Tears streamed down Elexi's face in an almost constant stream. " I...I'm a horrible person Alden...I've done things...I-I think I...killed people..." He cried as his hands clenched tight around the fabric of Alden's shirt. "I-I-I-" He stopped suddenly "....There is...is....so much blood." Elexi gasped as he saw the red substance leak out from the spots where his hands touched Alden. He jumped away from the other in shock and looked down at his hands. Red was the only color he could see. They were stained. Everything he touched was stained. "Oh god what have I done" Elexi whispered, completely horrified at what he saw.

Alden saw nothing on Elexi’s hands, he didn’t know what Elexi was freaking out about now. He didn’t know what to do anymore. How would one fix something like this? Something that reoccurs and causes such alarm. The worst Alden ever had to deal with before this was a guy with tourrets (and that was actually rather bothersome to handle.) Alden simply wrapped himself around Elexi in a big hug. He squeezed Elexi’s body gently against his, his arms wrapped over Elexi’s so he wouldn't be able to get at them as easily. “Elexi, Elexi, please. Everything is okay. You’re here now, it doesn’t matter what happened then, you’re here now.” Alden’s breath was warm on Elexi’s neck and his voice was slighty stifled in his hair and skin. “Please stay with me. Calm down and please stay with me… everything is okay. Elexi…”

"The blood...all the blood..." Elexi moaned and started sobbing again. "Alden...don't touch me...you'll only get covered in it too!" He cried pathetically as he tried without fail to break free from the other's grip. "I-I...I'm covered in this blood!!!" Still sobbing, Elexi buried his face into Alden's chest and wept till his throat was raw. "I can't run from it Alden...the blood, it keeps...it keeps coming, like an ever rising tide I'm not fast enough to escape!" He raised his head and looked up at the other. "My past is catching up with me...and when it finally does, it will pull me back into the depths of the bloody sea I have created!"


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