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If I say I'm happy, would it be enough for you?
To think that I am alright, after all that we've been through?
Can't you see how I feel, whenever I hear your name?
I must look away, as my face burns with shame.
I must not feel this way, musn't think about you and me.
You belong to another, so it isn't meant to be...
Even though it pains me, I will still watch over you.
Even though I'll be alone, it's worth it through and through.
To see a smile on your face, makes everything ok.
To hear the happiness in your voice, keeps my thinking sane.
But even though I'm grateful, to be here guarding you,
It seems to distance me, from what I want to do...
My chest has to be completely silent in order for me to be embraced.
My heart has stopped beating, it is trying to escape.
My soul has grown dark, from needs you cannot give.
I will continue searching, until I repay my sins.
For one day I will die, and I ask you to shed no tears.
Because it will mean that I am done looking, after so many years...