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...sorry but I dont really think people really care..im just irritated cuz of the pain im going through and though I work my a** off for everyone else, helpin everyone..being just THERE seems to make everyone feel more alive..I feel like a piece of crap..the disease I got before came back, probably Amber thinks im a pig or tha im an idiot for causing this myself...I love everyone...especially..ESPECIALLY AMBER...she has the greatest love no child, man, woman, mother, father or anyone will ever have..mine..-sighs- but i guess no one cares, im just gonns sit in a corner, cry and die..that or get through this and destroy everyone in my path..either way, both sound bad, the other one is people actually helping me out THIS time...but idk i kind of doubt that..my love one said she COULD try..yeah..do or do not, there is no try...master yoda, thank thee..hope always filled in my head, until that stupid character in a game said this: Hope is the beginning to unhappiness. wtf?..i dont want to get that in my head, but some people should help too you know..just out of love or kindness.. heart