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you said we were friends you said we can talk but when i try you wont i just wanted to make you feel good and all you felt was incomfertable... you never told me... you ignored me and i still thought we were friends... I STILL HAD hope... but you pushed me away. you pushed me to were i went crazzy! i wanted to talk and on friday the 23 you yelled to leave me alone. now you know i wouldnt i now was trying to find why your so mad and its because i call you names thats not right how can you be mad at me calling you sun shine, pumpkin, lovely, hun, and sweetheart. and you said never talk to me again you took most of my friends away... but why do i feel so damn ALIVE i never felt so good in my life i cant stop smiling it hurts that after i asked you out you ignored me and left me rotting and drowing in my own tears i couldnt cry i dont know why but i felt i would droun in the tears i cant produce and then you gave me my freedome i felt so good, alive, free of pain and now you feel bad and dont want to help but its my fault i cant enjoy my friends, you have them. i cant enjoy my love for you, you tore it to shreads, i cant live a life knowing THAT I HAVE ONE YEAR TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT! because love or friends i want you to go to that new school and know that the people here will miss you and that in all that school i was one of the bestest friends you ever had.. i never want to live a day knowing that i hurt what could have bean the bestest friend ship in the world just know you leave i am a new man no regrets or shames im free, im new, and im alive.!